If you are a reader of my blog, you know I take care of my wife with Dementia and aphasia along with memory loss. Diagnosed in 2017 the caregiving has been an education and an extreme stress for me. We have been married for forty years, and I stand by my promise to take care of her. It has been a rollercoaster of ups and downs and I do not have any social life: no family or friends to ease the stress and break the daily cycle that in the last several years has become something akin to the plots in the movies Groundhog's Day and Fifty First Dates.
I do not see any reason to expect an improvement, I think I have gotten used to this weird lifestyle, and things that used to keep me optimistic are fading fast.
No more working on artwork, songwriting, or thoughts of creativity. My wife always needs to be watched, guided and cared for.