Andron Dom

The Culture that has been here all the time

When I studied to acquire my Master's status I discovered the M/S relationship existed probably for all the history of humans. Religion and Western Culture distort this greatly. Using codes and euphemisms even denial masks it presents the fact many people thrive within this often unrecognized subculture. For example, my wife had all the earmarks of a pleasure slave and was generally devoted and submissive to me. In times of marriage friction, I often heard the words from a counselor, "She just wants you to love her" "Love her" I thought I was and did now I know without a doubt I need to be a master, not some preconceived idea we are to live as equals.

I Wasn't Planning to Write Today

3 months ago. February 14, 2024 at 2:24 PM

Hello, my friends,

I wasn't planning to write today being it is Valentine's Day and my wife is unable to understand that but, then I realized I am not the only one in a situation like this: Others may not have a "Valintine" or a reason to celebrate Valentine's Day as well.

My wife is seriously ill maybe another one of you share this situation. Maybe you were, maybe left alone or they shattered your heart?

Why do we suffer from a broken heart? We give more to the other person than they are willing to give you. My wife was so rare a woman and a perfect Sub I did well by her but if I understood her better I would have done better for her. But, now I demonstrate my love sacrificially and somehow I think she knows. Still, I miss having her as a complete mate: Partner, affectionate comforter, and (most missed) my lover.

Some hope for the future though it is complicated by my actions when I was ill-prepared to truly understand the consequences of my actions. I am happy that I led myself into boxed canyons by thinking I was trusting a real potential companion only to be ambushed with disappointing results.

I fell taking my dogs out back and hurt my face bled everywhere as I went back into the house for ice (still gave the dogs their rewards). The pain to me was nothing compared to a betrayal by a love interest: It is like a literal knife in my chest.

I still have hope for that companion. I still have room in my heart to love someone (I never stop even when they hurt me). Nothing is going to stop me from caring for my wife. I know somewhere there is a lover who will love me like that and care for me like I care for my wife.

So it appears there is something to hope for this Valentine's Day.

buckle bunny(sub female){Walkalone } - I understand that completely thinking that you knew someone and allowing them to be your world and I've been asking myself the same question why does it have to hurt so much

3 months ago

Andron Dom - What is worse? I fell in love with a woman I never met and she repeatedly lied to me and she promised to come for the holidays but spent them with another man (or) men. That hurt lingered I forgave her then she betrayed me again not long after. She is out of my life now.

3 months ago

buckle bunny(sub female){Walkalone } - I understand you pain I have just taken my collar off after a year and a half to a man who was my world who got lost somewhere along they way and no matter how I tried I couldn't fix him and my last few days have been a blur with no understanding of why. I do hope you find that someone who will become your world as he was mine

3 months ago

Andron Dom - buckle bunny an anecdote: I was in love once and married to my second wife we had a son with a heart defect she was an RN who thought he would die before his 18th birthday (he still lives today). She ran off with the maintenance man from where she worked. I thought that "I could fix the problem". No one agreed, with that attitude and a wise older black woman said to me an enigmatic phrase: What does that have to do with it? Don't associate something that doesn't apply. I finally realized there was nothing I could fix only live through it and time healed me.

3 months ago

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