Hello, my friends,
I wasn't planning to write today being it is Valentine's Day and my wife is unable to understand that but, then I realized I am not the only one in a situation like this: Others may not have a "Valintine" or a reason to celebrate Valentine's Day as well.
My wife is seriously ill maybe another one of you share this situation. Maybe you were, maybe left alone or they shattered your heart?
Why do we suffer from a broken heart? We give more to the other person than they are willing to give you. My wife was so rare a woman and a perfect Sub I did well by her but if I understood her better I would have done better for her. But, now I demonstrate my love sacrificially and somehow I think she knows. Still, I miss having her as a complete mate: Partner, affectionate comforter, and (most missed) my lover.
Some hope for the future though it is complicated by my actions when I was ill-prepared to truly understand the consequences of my actions. I am happy that I led myself into boxed canyons by thinking I was trusting a real potential companion only to be ambushed with disappointing results.
I fell taking my dogs out back and hurt my face bled everywhere as I went back into the house for ice (still gave the dogs their rewards). The pain to me was nothing compared to a betrayal by a love interest: It is like a literal knife in my chest.
I still have hope for that companion. I still have room in my heart to love someone (I never stop even when they hurt me). Nothing is going to stop me from caring for my wife. I know somewhere there is a lover who will love me like that and care for me like I care for my wife.
So it appears there is something to hope for this Valentine's Day.