Hello Friends,
Just another aftermath of online disappointments. Don't get me wrong having an online connection is a lifesaver for me: buy food and essentials, pay bills, schedule appointments, keep in touch with family and true friends (what are they?) and I have worked with my music and songs for decades online now. Still? I have had extreme disappointments, taken advantage of and deceived which has cost me many thousands of dollars.
Most of you know I have been at least 90% confined to my home in order to care for my wife with Alzheimer's/Dementia/Aphasia without a social life having moved to Boyertown, PA almost by accident. and I after 2 years in Pennsylvania am a stranger in a strange land. It is a lovely strange land: great town, great countryside and affordable with nice people. OK, I know some of you do not approve of me searching for a woman companion to fill some of the void my wife has left me with and there lies the rub: I can not date, and if I could I don't drink alcohol and senior centers don't work because it costs me $40/hour for someone to watch my wife who can not be left alone.
My Children and stepchildren do not help or visit. Fortunately, my stepdaughter has provided us with a grandson who recently returned from living in California: Wow a relative who visits us, and after a little while my wife either knows who he is (she doesn't think we are married BTW) or likes him and enjoys his company. He can be helpful and wants to learn guitar but one thing I still miss immensely is a woman friend to interact with in the most basic ways.
I am aging and don't feel at 76 even though still full of life I have many good years ahead (especially as caregiving continues to take its toll). My wife and I used to spend time taking rides and going to restaurants for a meal: Getting her to sit and eat is an ordeal for every meal our dogs follow her as she drops food. We cannot share a TV program, a book a movie, or a trip to a museum (there is one right behind our home and others in this town). So what falsehoods am I referring to?
The many lady friends I supposedly met online never join me for an activity instead, take as much money as I am foolish enough to give them in advance. No interaction with a feminine touch for me which is something I have always had for more than half a century. Yes, I complained about not having sex for three years but while that is part of a normal life, the emotional void is the most profound emptiness in my life.
