Hello Friends,
Like swimming, driving, or riding a bicycle, we do not forget how to have sex, but the longer we go without it, we forget how to make love. Why do I say this? Making love is about knowing your partner intimately, which takes time, communication, practice, and TRUST.
In my position to keep what I may be losing for this three-year dry spell and not having a partner to get to know and trust, all I can do is fantasize (not in a trivial sense, more akin to the Pcyhocybernetics that I wrote about in a previous post).
Aging is another factor working against me. It is an invisible enemy that creeps into me while I remain unaware of its effects. In the song Suicide is Painless (a fav the MASH theme) Johnny Mandel (music) and Michael Altman (at 14 years old in five minutes)(lyrics)
" . . . The sword of time will pierce our skins
It doesn't hurt when it begins
But as it works its way on in
The pain grows stronger, watch it grin . . . "
No, I won't give up without a fight, but we don't live forever, do we?
I am 76
"I asked my doctors why so many people die at my age 76? They al lsaid, "That is normal". So why am I still alive and would rather be dead instead of so stressed as a sole caregiver with out a single bit of a damn social life. Do not dare ask me what I do for fun that word is not in my vocabulary"