Organized Chaos

To all who served, and to the families that supported those who served....

Thank you for your sacrifice.

My life is simple now. 

If you reach out, I'll respond.

If you go quiet, I'll match that. 

You check in on me, I'll do the same.

I reflect the energy I receive.

No chasing.

No pressure.

No second guessing.

I've come to value peace over attention. 

I don't beg for time, force connections, or disrupt anyone's space.

I let things be.

I believe in energy, and I return it exactly how it's given.

Be real with me and I'll be loyal without question, 

But if you play games, act distant, or vanish, I won't argue.

I'll take the hint and respect the space.

I'm not angry, just done done with confusion, mixed messages, and putting in effort alone. 

These days, I protect my peace above all. 

No drama.

No mind games.

If you want me in your life, 

Show it.

If not, that's okay, too. 

I won't beg or demand answers.

I used to overthink everything.

Now, I just accept and move on. 

It's not about ego.

It's about peace.

I've stopped trying to revive what's already over.

Respect and communication matter.

Effort always speaks louder than talk. 

If you want to be treated right, 

Show up right, 

Because I match what I get. 

Nothing more. 

Nothing less.

~ RS

Tell people how you feel. Take a chance. Life is too short to live with what-ifs or regrets. 

Last year, I sent an email, to tell someone how I felt. Sadly, I didn’t hear back, but no response IS a response.

Do I regret it? Not at all! I know that I said what I needed, and gave a new opportunity for a second chance, a shot. 

Was it scary? HELL YA! Probably one of the harder things I've had to do. Being vulnerable sucks but I knew not saying anything, was definitely worse. 

Recently, I was reminded that life is short, and no one is guaranteed tomorrow. 

SAY THE DIFFICULT THINGS. DONT HIDE BEHIND WHAT-IFS. DON'T SECOND GUESS YOURSELF. JUST PUT IT OUT THERE.

What's the worst thing that can happen? They don't respond/reject you?

I'M STILL STANDING!

But...what if they don't? What if they've been too scared to tell you? What if they are just insecure and aren't sure what they have to offer? What if, deep down, they want to get to know you better? What if they like you, too?

At least you won't be over thinking it, wondering what if...? That shit will drive you crazy!

BE BOLD. BE BRAVE. BE MESSY. BE UNAPOLOGETICALLY YOU.

As Ms Frizzle taught us, "Take chances! Get messy! Make mistakes!"

Life is messy sometimes. Dont be afraid to stand in your truth. Say the scary things, because you never know, when someone might decide to be brave, too. 

Today... 

Today, is the day my life changed forever... 

Today, is the day they gave me the news I NEVER wanted to hear...

Today, I cried and my heart broke...

Tonight, I put one foot in front of the other...

Tonight, I take one breath at a time until the drowning feeling passes...

Today... is the day my world flipped upside down.