I am doing much better than I thought I would, considering everything that I'd been through in the past 9 months.
I am focused on getting my life together, and I feel hopeful. I am still planning on relocating to another country, I need a complete fresh start. It terrifies me, but I feel drawn towards a few places. I want a stable and committed relationship, but I don't think that I can find it in my country. I love my country, but I don't think that it is conducive to my growth.
I miss my former Dom a lot, I am not angry at him. Everything is working out as it should. I hold resentment towards circumstances, but not him.
I've been focused on my healing. It has been extremely rewarding, and my core, my heart, is good and content. It doesn't feel heavy. My mind is not torturing me anymore. I still feel grief over my dynamic, but it's coexisting with something healthier. I can't explain it. I feel extremely grounded with enough delusion and bravery to finally go after the life I want.
I am taking a break from kink. I am tired of meaningless connections.
Externally, life is finally peaceful. Internally, it's also peaceful, but it has been an intense time (in a good way).
I've reached a mental state that I've always wanted and I worked damn hard to get to this level on healing.