Under The Whip

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Sir Warwick Harrow : You have to finish it, lad. You have to finish it. For a man to lay beaten... and yet breathing? It makes him a coward.

Mal : Sure. It would be humiliating. Having to lie there while the better man refuses to spill your blood. Mercy is the mark of a great man.

[lightly stabs Atherton with the sword]

Mal : Guess I'm just a good man.

[stabs him again]

Mal : Well, I'm all right.

This show is not only one of my most favorite and dearest to my hearts but I have never believed there is Good Vs Evil. I have always believed their is Good and Evil inside of us all. For some it comes easily, naturally, and for others it takes being held at gun point to draw it out of us.

However it is truly the sign of someone strong to walk away from a fight knowing that the moment they turn their back someone might still have the audacity to have lost the fight and still attack when they think they have the upper hand. That is honestly how you reveal cowards and bullies. They never want to fight you when you stand there brave, strong and looking them dead in the eye.

For me it honestly depends on what you have done to determine if I will walk away. For me if I am your villain in the nightmare you have created for yourself then you deserved that side of me. I have no qualms with giving you mercy but you better believe me I will never back down from something strong in my path.

If you want mercy you better damn deserve it. For many mistake kindness for weakness when that is never the case. So do not just be naive and think everyone is inherently good. Be the good you want to see in the world but be the darkness that needs to come when the time calls for it.

Post a kinky image you find erotic.

This one I could not decide if they wanted me to post an image of myself or just one I find erotic and kinky. Regardless I chose not to post anything at all. The reason for this is that any kinky/erotic images are mostly for the eyes of my masters only. If I ever do post erotic nudes or kinky images that are of me or ones of myself with my masters it is with their permission only and ones I only choose to share with friends. Even though I am a bit of an exhibitionist when we are at public play spaces and events like that, that allow nudity and kinky fun I still do not desire to have all of my images online for the entire world to see.

As for finding some random image off the internet I could easily have just done that. There are so many images that I enjoy of erotic photography, kinky photography but alas I do not have their consent to post those. I used to have thousands of images on my accounts in folders of images that inspired me but I did spend the better part of the end of 2024 removing these images. I also despite enjoying erotic photography have unfollowed many of these artists for the fact that subjecting myself to these images on a daily basis was damaging to my self esteem and mental health. I neither look like these beautiful sensual models and I always judged myself against these images or found myself becoming depressed because I was unable to do things like the models do in these images. So that is why I have chosen to forego this actual challenge and just write about why I chose not to post anything.

I respect kink models and photographers that photograph them. Occasionally if a person I follow likes an image or I end up seeing one pop up that I find artistic I will give that person a like or a thoughtful comment but that is for now as far as it goes for me in the kinky erotic photography and art section of my life. I need to build up love for myself and accepting who I am as the person I am instead of judging me for things that are not occurring on an everyday basis when they are modeling events, and since I do not have permission to share images and I respect these people I just simply cannot share their work that inspires my own kinky fuckery.

What’s your favorite toy?'

Goodness I almost had to beg my masters to go have some play time because I did recently get some new toys and I was like, hmmm which ones are my favorites now. However after the long long week we have had and the fact all three of us need down time I think I will break it down completely, and just stick with my tried and true favorites and then add a new one at the end.

Favorite Sex Toy:

Hitachi Wand

Favorite Kink Accessory:

Leather Blindfold

Favorite Impact Toy:

100 Falls Flogger

Favorite D/s Accessory:

Leather Collar

Favorite Little Accessory:

Paci

Favorite Little Toy:

Dinosaurs For Bath Time

Brand New Favorite Toy:

New Leather/Spikey Paddle

Pfft they say Diamonds are a girls best friend. Yeah, nope. Diamonds are too boring and plain and lack in color. Give me things that make me feel something in all facets of color, shape, sensations, and texture. Then wrap me in a blankey, with a stuffy, and my paci for cartoons.

What was your first kinky sexual experience?

Goodness I have been kinky for so long it is hard to pinpoint the exact moment of when I had my fisrt exact kinky experience. So I am sure I had a lot but we will just focus on this. The first time I feel like I had a kinky experience was one night after a party I had a one night stand with a man on a bed, and right beside us was my close friend having sex on the same bed with her one night stand. Was pretty kinky and rather sexually charged but we were young then and pretty dumb as well. Still it was memorable.

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Describe your weirdest/most interesting sexual fantasy.

Well this one is even more difficult to answer because what is weird to some is not likely weird to me and vice versa. I am unsure to be honest what mine would be. I have several that I am interested in and are often the ones I turn to for thinking about for alone sexual fun time if and or whenI do, do that. I suppose I can list the two here. I have a massive abduction fantasy where I am locked in the besetment and turned into a pretty sex slave for my CNC kink, or the other would be a nice large gang bang would be interesting. I guess mine are pretty basic but meh, to some they might be weird.

Any early experiences that, in retrospect, hint at your kinks?

I am sure while I was growing up there was sort of weird things I did all the time that would have been evident if someone was looking for it to hint at any of my kinks. The way I played with barbie dolls or the types of cartoons I watched the way I sat on the floor and things like this. However I do not want to get too deep into this topic becuase I feel I could spend an eternity upon this.

One of the biggest ones I can say would have revealed I was kinky before I knew I was kinky would have to be hide and seek as a young child to my teen years. Hell I still play it to this day and it is one of my favorite games in the entire world. Now I know why.

I used to love being the person that hid. The anticipation of the seeker finding me, grabbing me and taking me to Hide and Seek jail. There was a sensation always about it and of course the seeker had to be the boy I was crushing on or my boyfriend I was dating at the time.

Now to this day when I play Hide and Seek it is due to Primal Play. The anticipation of getting caught. That inert fear of them chasing you down, capturing you and per the terms of whatever was negotiating you were either taken to your cage as a captive or tossed to the ground right there and sexually used for hours on end.

Perhaps to the majority of the world while I was growing up it was innocent fun and games but looking back today as a Primal play person it was very much the hunter and the prey. Granted I never really liked ever being the seeker despite being really good at it but if you put me in the position of being the person that hides I get all giddy and excited. I want to be captured naturally but I want to make them work for it.

"There are moments in our lives when we can lose sight of why we are submitting, or we can’t grasp that warm glow of submission like we used to." - Submissive Advent Calendar, LunaKM by the Submissive Guide.

A token that represents my submission can be so many things. I have a keychain of a wolf because I definitely resonate with being a wolf in spirit and it has my slave name, Ava etched into it. However I didnt actually make that. I custom ordered it.

I dont have beads or safety pins on hand to create with, and goodness I was pulling out the paints and canvases currently to pain something amazing to hang on my wall that is so personal. People would never understand.

So to the drawing board. Literally. I created a beautiful card, the size of a playing card. I need the card to be black because I am blind and black is one color I can actually see. The gold represents the richness of my submission. How passionate I am to serve and please my Masters. The willingness I come to them and the love and devotion. It is deep and rich with need and love completely. The filigree design is because I am an artist and I love to be creative in my submissive acts.

The purple represents the House of Koch. It is the color of choice since one Masters favorite color is Red, and the others is Blue, and when you combine them together clearly purple is made. The heart is my submissive heart, in purple because my heart, body, mind, and soul belongs to my Masters.

The bunny ears. Well I am Bunny Bites, but I am my Masters rope bunny. Their cute, happity, hippity, hoppity little rabbit. It resonates so much with me and I absolutely love it. The gold chains completely wrapped around them because I am locked in bondage and servitude to my Masters.

Forever and always, in love and chains.

To see the card just shoot me a DM. 

How Did You Discover You Were Kinky?

So I realized early on that I was different growing up. Growing up was rather difficult even if you took out the abuse I endured I had a confusing upbringing. My biological father is an Irish Traveler but due to being adopted he did not get to remain in his tradutions. So he always told me and raised me to be a dutiful house wife. That women do the chores, cooking, and raising children. At least all the inside house hold chores. My mother however kept telling me that I never needed a man I can go and do whatever I wanted. So naturally I wanted to be a house wife, be married and all of that and then part of me screamed at me for not wanting to be independent and just have a fun life without the norms. In school whenever we were asked what we wanted to be when we grew up all the other children said they wanted to be astronauts or doctors and I simply said a wife and mother.

Then you fast forward to Disney's Aladdin. That moment where Jasmine was a prisoner dressed in red, with her gold chains. Jafar grabs them tugs her over and takes a bite of the apple being held in her hands. I wanted that. I was so jealous of her. I would watch the movie over and over again simply for that part alone. As I got older I would soon begin to learn about sex and life and such. That is when my fantasies began. Whenever I cam across someone with a dominant personality I was extremely attracted. I had dreams about being Jasmine in the same scenarios and how badly I wanted to have chains on my body, cuffs and a pretty slave girl serving an apple in the same way.

There was an instance once when my boyfriend had stayed over. We were 17 years old and I remember him asking me to make him a bowl of ramen. The way he told me to make it was to make it with exactly five cups of water. Boil the noodles for four minutes once the water was boiling. Then I was supposed to get him when it was done. So after I followed the instructions he came in and dumped out all of the water put the seasoning packets in and sat down. He asked me if I had done exactly as he had asked. I said yes, and then he laughed at me. He asked me why I did it that way when he was just going to dump the water out anyways. He said the amount of water would not have mattered.

YES HE WAS A DICK ABOUT IT!!!

Still when I think about these things I have always done everything my power to make my boyfriends in the past happy. There were moments I would be at their house and they would just lift their cups up and I would just get up and go fetch them another drink. It wasn't until I was 19 years old that I met a dominant online on a chat program. He took me under his wing and began to teach me about BDSM and the lifestyle and the fact I was a submissive. I served him for a little while and then moved onto the Gorean lifestyle. Between that time and 2014 I went through a few masters some were just jerks and needed to mature more and others left because I needed to mature more. Overall I think my journey in the BDSM world has been fruitful. Some lessons I had to learn the hard way and some came very easily for me. I am grateful that I have gotten to walk my path the way I have and I am really happy where I am currently.

# List Your Kinks.

Goodness I have far too many to list so down below I will just supply the ones I know are a definite yes and will do multiple times again and again. I have no desire to list my soft limits or things I am curious about. I honestly do believe that listing things I am not interested in would have been a much shorter list but this is fun and well you can all learn a little bit more about who I am as a person.

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My Kinks and Fetishes:
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Bondage

* Rope and Leather
* Blindfolds
* Collars
* Sensory Deprivation
* Restraints
* Suspension

Bodily Fluids

* Cream Pies
* Anal Pies

Fetishes

* Boot Worship
* Cock Worship
* Corsets
* Wearing Heels
* Lingerie

Humiliation

* Forced Feminization
* Forced Nudity
* Forced Servitude
* Humiliation play in Private/sexual
* Shaving of bodily hair
* Standing in the corner
* Verbal humiliation during sex

Impact and Rough Play

* Caning
* Face Slapping
* Riding Crops
* Spankings w/hands, utensils
* Flogger
* Wrestling/ Primal Play
* Fantasy Gang CnC

Branding/Marking

* Branding
* Tattoos

Roleplay

* Auction for charity
* Fear play
* Abduction
* Name Changes
* Open to other roleplays
* CNC Roleplay scenes

Sensation Play

* Breath Play
* Biting/Being Bitten
* Clamps
* Cloths Pins
* Violet Wand
* Hair Pulling
* Wax Play
* Ice Cubes
* Knife play
* Nipple Play
* Pain Play
* Discipline/Punishments
* Scratching
* Suction Cups
* Teasing
* Tickling
* Pinwheels

Service and Restricted/Controlled Behavior

* Everything to do with this

### Sexual Activity/Service
* Regular Penetration
* Anal
* Oral
* Sexy Toys
* Orgasm Control/Denial

Voyeur/Exhibitionism

* Examinations
* Forced Nudity
* Erotica Photo Shoots
* Outdoor Scenes
* Recording Videos
* Voyeurism - Only watching S&M Scenes

TPE & M/s

* Master/slave
* 1950's Household
* Gorean Lifestyle
* Traditional House Wife

What Parts of BDSM Interest You?

The first thing that really pulls me into the BDSM world is the fact I can give over my control to someone and allow myself the liberty in just existing and being who I am as a person without judgment. The fact I also get to live my heart's desire in service to them. I also fully enjoy having the rituals and protocols given to me by my masters and having our daily routine. I have always been a service slave at heart since I started and then when I became disabled it became a bit more difficult to do all that I used to do so to make me feel a little bit more into our dynamic we swapped the dynamic a little bit around and have tweaked it so much that it works out so beautifully for us now. I can have my little space days and have the freedom there to express myself and live my life, and then there are other days when I can be that pretty service slave doing tasks, or toss me down and objectify me as your little pleasure doll.

Then in BDSM you enter in all of my kinks and my fetishes. Oh those make for some good sexy scenes and sexual play. We can wrestle and get our primal urges out of our system. We can do our impact play for intense sadistic and masochistic fun, or use it for my therapuetic moments. Plus things like impact play really ground me and help me to get out of my head and back into the moment completely.

One of the best things I really love about BDSM is that I can explore who I am as a person. I can reach into my desires and my fantasies and explore to my hearts content and not feel judged. It is really a place I can just dive into who I am as a person, and find other people who are just like me and feel as though I belong somewhere.