I have found myself learning to get to know and embrace my Little side. I have always known I never outgrew my love for certain childish things; simple crafts, Disney movies, my love for colorful decor and clothing, etc., as well as I primarily live in my Middle space, except when life necessitates otherwise. I absolutely loathe adulting, but obviously accept it as part of life. Thankfully not much in my life stifles my Middle, but I am very much relishing the times I get to be in tune with my Little. I still sometimes am having a hard time accepting it, and will often just feel silly, but trying to shut those doubts/insecurities down. It is getting better. Being on this site and reading other's stories has helped, and Daddy has helped as well by being relentlessly supportive and understanding. I also become part of a local BDSM group which even has it's own sub-group for Littles and Bigs. They even have a Little Scouts group which I just recently joined! I was recently invited to a private Easter potluck for the Bigs/Littles and at the end the Littles get to participate in an Easter Egg Hunt! Which I am unexpectedly stupidly excited that I get to pick out an Easter basket and do an egg hunt again! I am very much looking forward to it! And then in May we have a Littles Zoo outing! 😁
As for the close call, it is simply the fact that I almost missed out on all of this. Leaving my past relationship for good was the best thing I've ever done. While yes, it has brought on it's share of turmoil, I would have NEVER found out about this whole community, or met the person I now love and who makes me happier than I could have ever imagined possible. I would have never learned to love myself for who I truly am, which I am still discovering and layer by layer, unearthing. The thought that I may have gone my whole life not having these experiences makes me sick to my stomach and grateful that is not the reality. Only goes to show that growth and progress often requires a leap of faith, scary as it may seem at the time. I do feel braver, though a long way to go, I am working on it and finding my voice and the confidence to be myself without regard of what others think. And to those who can't accept it, GOOD FUCKING RIDDANCE. 😁