All that Jaz

So, I love posting music videos, because music has always been my escape and it's so exciting to meet people who had/have the same tastes.  My problem, I think, is that I try to escape to much....because I can.  My anxiety and depression; thrown on top of my PTSD like it when I seek the shadows, when I shut myself off from everything. I have always been a social person who is just jailed in a cage of anxiety.  I love being around people that I relate to, but I don't always know how to communicate with them.  I feel like the perpetual outsider. Maybe not an outsider, per se, I feel accepted, but a lot of the time I feel like I am on the outer ring looking in.  Always wondering if the next thing I say or do, will result in my excommunication.  I wish I knew how to break out of my shell, and be completely confident.