All that Jaz

whatever I feel like putting into words at the time...

So, I love posting music videos, because music has always been my escape and it's so exciting to meet people who had/have the same tastes. My problem, I think, is that I try to escape to much....because I can. My anxiety and depression; thrown on top of my PTSD like it when I seek the shadows, when I shut myself off from everything. I have always been a social person who is just jailed in a cage of anxiety. I love being around people that I relate to, but I don't always know how to communicate with them. I feel like the perpetual outsider. Maybe not an outsider, per se, I feel accepted, but a lot of the time I feel like I am on the outer ring looking in. Always wondering if the next thing I say or do, will result in my excommunication. I wish I knew how to break out of my shell, and be completely confident.

Thecharmedmuse(switch female){My Wildman} - I don’t have PTSD but I suffered a small case of it when I was exiting my abusive marriage. I dealt with a lot of anxiety and I suffer from insecurities from time to time. I’m not a very social person but I enjoy being around people. I love music and dancing. As you know 😊. I’ll go out by myself and just be around people I don’t know. I will dance. I will do this and talk to no one. I’ve discovered I prefer dancing around people rather than shut away in my room. I have no idea why. Could be the energy could be my exhibitionist tendencies... dunno. But sometimes ya just gotta say ... fuck it. It you screw something up in front of a bunch of people just think ... you are allowing others to feel more comfortable to screw up as well.

5 years ago

Jaz13(sub male) - that is something I realized somewhat lately...I love to dance (horribly). Good beats make me move

5 years ago

Thecharmedmuse(switch female){My Wildman} - It is the best feeling to dance like a weirdo with a bunch of people also dancing like weirdos... just sayin.

5 years ago

Jaz13(sub male) - this place is void of weirdos, unfortunately

5 years ago

Thecharmedmuse(switch female){My Wildman} - Damn. Maybe they are closer weirdos.

5 years ago

Thecharmedmuse(switch female){My Wildman} - That was supposed to say “closet” weirdos

5 years ago

venia(sub female){notlooking} - *raises hand*. I’m firmly in the weirdo camp.

5 years ago

Thecharmedmuse(switch female){My Wildman} - Hip bump! Weirdos unite!

5 years ago

Constellation(sub female){Taken} - I'm sorry you are going through this. I used to feel very insecure too, alone even among people, until I learned to accept myself. I started taking care of my mental health through professional help and later my physical health. I found that a heavy day at the gym would let my worries seep away, as I feel my body tired and aching, it helps me a lot on my self esteem too. I hope you learn to accept yourself soon too!

5 years ago

Jaz13(sub male) - the gym is something that has helped me in the past as well...being retired Army, and living next to a post, I have free reign in the facilities....I should probably look into doing that

5 years ago

Morley(sub female){Max Sterne} - Bigs hugs to you Jaz ❤️🤗❤️
You will find your inner strength! Until then, use us, the community to say how and what you want. We will build you up!

5 years ago

Jaz13(sub male) - I know y'all will, you have so many times already! Thank you!

5 years ago

Hislittlegenie(sub female){MB123} - (((Hugs)))

5 years ago

HGB(sub female){Scottish M} - Definitely here for you, hugs

5 years ago

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Jaz13​(sub male)

All that Jaz

the fear....

Jaz13(sub male)