Having been away from the scene for some time, I'm finding my psychosexual self reacting in a different way than I'd expected.
I haven't had a sub, slave or plaything for some time and naturally I find myself starting to pine just a little for my lost role as a full on, real world, practicing dom.
But it's not the sex that I miss. Much that I enjoy placing parts of myself inside selected other people, it's not that aspect of it that occupies my mind right now. Similarly, it's not "the kink", either. The punishments, rules, order or even the domination per se.
The part I pine for it really getting to know a sub, worming my way into their psyche and their sexual urges and testing myself and my authority and skill as a dom to see how I can have them submit to me and how I can reward their obeisance with sexual gratification of (hopefully) the most powerful kind.
It is the dynamic and the connection that I miss. The sense of achievement and power that comes from having a strong woman submit to me willingly.
If I could only bottle that... ;)
