Hello My Beloved Friends!!!!,
I hope y'all are doing well! I'm really nervous writing this, even though I'm sure no one will read it. I just spent the past 15 minutes trying to decide on a font if that says anything about me 😭 English isn't my first language so don't hate on my grammar and punctuation, I'm terrible at it and this is supposed to be fun. I don't have any one to talk to so I'm taking charge and making a diary, where I'm going to share everything fun, terrible, and possibly kinky that goes on in my life.
I talk a lot and no one wants to hear me rant about Lando Norris crashing into his teammate at the Canadian Grand Prix one more time, so here we are!! I'm not really sure what to start with so we just going to start with the last week of my life. I go to university in the US and right now were are on summer break (I'm still taking 4 classes though 😓), so I've been really unproductive and have felt like a waste of space recently. my sleep schedule is terrible and I just honestly feel like shit. I realize every summer that I need structure like school to keep my life together or I will go completely crazy. I'm a premed student so I'm used to be hella busy all of the time but now I'm not and I feel crazy. Honestly I did look for a job but no one wants a student who can't work full time during a school semester. I also emailed dozens of doctors about shadowing and research and either they don't reply or they are like sorry girl we don't have any room for you. like what???? that's so annoying. but anyways I'm trying my best to get my life together.
I've also been on the hunt for an apartment and let me tell you in a college town every place either has roaches or is $1500 a month and living by myself I cannot afford that so again one more reason for me to just jump🤪 On a more positive note I am able to hold a conversation with a man for more than 24 hours!!! I'm honestly so bad at flirting and I get so awkward when any mentions anything sexual. it's not like im uncomfortable I'm just weird and don't know what to say, its very easy to get flustered literally just say anything remotely sexual and I either freeze up, don't respond, or change the subject😁 its a curse, but I'm trying to work on it!!
Anyways for now this is goodbye. I don't know what else to say and I have some lovely folks trying to get my attention. I'll be back soon to rant again I'm sure!!
Much Love,
bbylaura🧡🧡