This week I hurt two very special people in my life, you know who you are. Not intentionally, not maliciously but I hurt them nonetheless. I pride myself on my honesty and respect, expecting to put as much into a dynamic as I expect from the other person. I believe the energy you invest in a dynamic is important and for me, as a domme, to hold the space and structure and provide the support required to enable the dynamic to grow and a submissive to flourish.
Due to time commitments, I am starting my own business on top of working full time, I have had to say that I need to step back from these two dynamics as I do not have the head space or emotional space to provide them with the support they deserve. I have not taken this decision lightly but after much reflection and a long conversation with my husband. The decision based on this; that at the end of the day, it is unfair of me expect them to respect me as their domme if I am unable to provide, at this time, the support, structure and respect they deserve.
Am I upset by this, yes, am I saddened by the pain I have caused, absolutely. Do I believe I am wrong in this decision, no. Others may disagree. As hard as it is, for now it is the right one. These two dynamics are worth proper investment and not just a slither of my attention.
To the two very special people that I am referring to, know this, you deserve the respect and time of Domme/Dom who is able to give you the support and structure that you desire. You are both amazing and beautiful people. Supporting you to flourish has bought me much happiness. May you hold onto the fact that, in this instance, the cliche is very true, it is me and not you. Be Strong, Be Beautiful, Be Fearless and remember your worth x