Trying to come to terms with the fact I'm a little was a bit disconcerting. Finding out I naturally tried to build my own structure and making time for play. It's been one month since I started this journey and honestly I wouldn't have had it any other way. This is a just a free form ramble where I'm just trying to reflect on my journey and how I'm finding this world. I'm slowly trying to go from littlegirllost to littlegirlfound.
When I was first told by a domme, that I may be a little at first I was like what? You've gotta be kidding me, but then as we dissected my life it made more and more sense. Instead of playing with dolls, I play video games that allow me to make my own storylines (long live the Sims 4). I collect stuff like plushies and teddies just because I think they're cute and I also adore the entirety of sanrio cast of characters! Like I love cute kawaii things and it's just makes sense. Honestly if it wasn't for my domme I wouldn't have realised that I'm a little let alone begin to get my life in order and start to manage to be a confident women.
When I first started exploring this dynamic, I realised I was fighting myself. There was a part of me that wanted to be big and keep full control of my life, whilst there was another part of me that craved having someone else to guide me and help me to explore my littler side. Fighting yourself is always a challenge like it's a tug of war but either way it feels like your gonna lose. If I wasn't told that it's ok to be little or it's ok to be a sub I probably would still be fighting myself now. It took about two weeks for me to get used to and become better acquainted with my little side, and now I know her a bit better but we're still learning about eachother.
Being a little doesn't mean anything is wrong with you, like you're not broken, you're not weak and you're just an adult who has different likes. You can like cartoons or plushies or colouring and still be strong and confident. Its taken me time to realise this but now I'm a happy little who is sometimes a brat but is enjoying this journey either way.
The following two weeks were filled with laughter, brattiness and just trying to fully get to grips with the rules my domme had set for me, like I'm still trying to get a full week of no black stars on my starboard, but that's besides the point. But each day is an adventure and each day I learn something new whether it's from an article Miss sends me or if it's something I stumbled across on this site. Each day is a new day to learn and grow as a little.