Being sick and being stuck in bed has given me a lot of time to think and reflect on the past few weeks. Though they have been filled with many up's and downs, turns and twists, I Violet might have found something beautiful and amazing. That's filled with love, trust and I'm able to be myself, damage and all. It scares the living crap out of me. Apart of me thinks that I'm too damage to love, that once I let my walls down and let them in fully they aren't going to like that they find. But first how do I bring down those walls?
Also another part of my gets uncomfortable when someone shows or tells me they care about me. I've never had that before expect for one person my Aunt and she died a few years ago. I don't know how to expect that someone could possibly love me. Am I really that broken?
Feeling like I could love someone(s) and I really mean love them is new and it makes me want to run away and push them away because no one has ever fought for me before.
It's all overwhelming and I just don't know what to make of it all... But I know I have to try and let them in ❤️
Violet ❤️