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Not Ashamed Anymore

How do you start off one of those? Do you jump in with both feet or just float there hoping for the best?

Well for along time I was floater. I was ashamed of my needs and wants. I was already an outsider to my family and feeling what I was feeling, would it make it worse?

Then I thought if I step into this life and start looking for a Daddy, would I just been seen as another girl with daddy issues.

Its hard knowing you need something so deeply and badly and know it isn't the "normal". I'm not ashamed of myself anymore, but it does scare me. But here I am jumping with two fit in and I'm hoping to find the right Daddy for me.
6 years ago. Wednesday, March 13, 2019 at 9:37 AM

"You are not an option, a choice or a soft place to land after a long battle. You were meant to be the one. If you can wrap yourself around the idea that you are something incredible, then you will stop excusing behavior that rapes your very soul. You were never meant to teach someone to love you. You were meant to be loved" ― Shannon L. Alder 

I was awaken early with a knock on my door is morning that I can't even put into words the lose I feel right now. My heart hurts so much. In a few blogs ago I told you all, that I work part time at a gym with ex military friends, but a few did chose to go back into service over a year ago. Today I was notified one was killed in action and the other  was Gravely injured but is going to survive.

These guys brought life and laughter back into my world when I thought all was dark. I knew there was a chance this might happen and I don't have a lot of information given their unit. Both didn't have any family that's why I was their contact if anything should go wrong.

 

The quote at the top was the last the one that was killed said to me. ?

I'm thankful for the time and friendship I was given and hope my other friend can physically heal, but I know mentally and emotionally will take way longer. 

 

Hold your loved ones close ?

 

Violet and Hank ???

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