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Not Ashamed Anymore

How do you start off one of those? Do you jump in with both feet or just float there hoping for the best?

Well for along time I was floater. I was ashamed of my needs and wants. I was already an outsider to my family and feeling what I was feeling, would it make it worse?

Then I thought if I step into this life and start looking for a Daddy, would I just been seen as another girl with daddy issues.

Its hard knowing you need something so deeply and badly and know it isn't the "normal". I'm not ashamed of myself anymore, but it does scare me. But here I am jumping with two fit in and I'm hoping to find the right Daddy for me.
6 years ago. Wednesday, March 20, 2019 at 10:18 AM

Hi everyone, 

Its been  few long days. A lot had happened and I needed to step back and take a moment to put myself first.

Being in a situation where you just don't know if you are good enough for someone is frustrating.. You seem to make them angry these days, yet they are upbeat with the other person and that just makes you feel like a bag of shit. Like no matter what you do it just seems to not work. 

 

Makes you like your problem or just plan unwanted and this is their way of pushing you out? Ugh it's such a mind fuck... 

On top of this I'm back to work this week and it's just as stressful if not more then what it was like before I got sick. Just a whole bunch of crap on my plate this week. 

Anyways half way done the week! Hope everyone's week is going better.

 

Violet and Hank ??

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