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Not Ashamed Anymore

How do you start off one of those? Do you jump in with both feet or just float there hoping for the best?

Well for along time I was floater. I was ashamed of my needs and wants. I was already an outsider to my family and feeling what I was feeling, would it make it worse?

Then I thought if I step into this life and start looking for a Daddy, would I just been seen as another girl with daddy issues.

Its hard knowing you need something so deeply and badly and know it isn't the "normal". I'm not ashamed of myself anymore, but it does scare me. But here I am jumping with two fit in and I'm hoping to find the right Daddy for me.
6 years ago. Wednesday, March 20, 2019 at 9:44 PM

Good evening Everyone, 

So today's been a day..  Between a hospital visit, funeral and work it's been overwhelming a little. 

I have some friends staying with me for a little bit to help me out and to make sure I'm okay mentally, physically and emotionally. We are all grieving too, so it's nice we can lean on each other.

Still in my thinking stage on my earlier blog. Still unsure of how much I mean to people. Maybe that's me protecting myself or me protecting my heart from truly seeing whats going on... Am I wanted? Am I loved? So much to think about. 

Thank you for the helpful comments and messages everyone. It really means a lot to me to have that love and support. I don't really get that in my life a lot so it means a lot to me!

 

Sweet Dreams, 

 

Violet and Hank ??

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