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Not Ashamed Anymore

How do you start off one of those? Do you jump in with both feet or just float there hoping for the best?

Well for along time I was floater. I was ashamed of my needs and wants. I was already an outsider to my family and feeling what I was feeling, would it make it worse?

Then I thought if I step into this life and start looking for a Daddy, would I just been seen as another girl with daddy issues.

Its hard knowing you need something so deeply and badly and know it isn't the "normal". I'm not ashamed of myself anymore, but it does scare me. But here I am jumping with two fit in and I'm hoping to find the right Daddy for me.
6 years ago. Saturday, July 6, 2019 at 4:47 PM

Hey everyone, 

 

Its been awhile since I put anything out in here, either I was going to be attacked on what I wanted to share or made out to be a crazy, horrible person so I just stayed quite. Not having a voice again made me go into a deep depression and I'm probably not fully out of it yet. But here I am trying again to be all happy and out going. 

 

Look whatever happened, happened. All parties were to blame, end of story let's move on from it!

Easier said then done when it comes to someone telling you, I'm too young, not good enough, don't have enough experience, it's all your fault and so on. It takes a toll on you mentally and not having a place to go and talk about it has really sucked!

Also I've been dealing with someone sending me messages and trying to play mind games with me, digging into my past relationship and just being a troll, so that's fun!

 

I want to be someone and I also what them to love me for me! Is that too much to want and ask for?

 

-Violet and Hank-

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