Hi again!
So it's been along few months! Finally after weeks and weeks of bullshit I have finally found out the truth and I feel so much better.
Feeling like I was the problem, that I was crazy, that I was stupid, but only to find out I found myself in yet another abusive relationship sucked dick! Not all parties were abusive but the head of the party was. Wanted me to be someone I wasn't, to write down a mintue by mintue play by play of my day, what I was doing every second. Was always up my ass about something, only to find out I was the only one getting this treatment was like a punch to that stomach! I was always being turned into someones twin, to be just the same as that other person. It was so draining and overwhelming, it drove me into a deep depression and my anxiety was driving me to throw up and over think everything.
Also being stocked by one said person and knew things I only shared within the party was messed up. I had to move and change up my daily schedule, because I felt too open and worried..... Only to find out it was a funny like trick to keep eyes on me..... And they said online dating would be fun....
Anyways on a much more happier note, being able to find people you can laugh, be funny, silly and still have a serious conversation is so refreshing and I'm so excited to feel safer and healthier!!! ?
Much brighter days ahead!