I saw this graphic today...it spoke so deeply to me that I wanted to share it.
Your music is not too loud
Your music is not too much
YOU are not too much!
I know I have struggled with feeling like I am simply too much-too loud, too bold, too happy, too emotional, too childlike, and on and on and on further down that rabbit hole I have tumbled. I'd like to say that I have arrived and never feel I am "too much" because I have moved past that. However, I would be lying.
I am thankful for a very patient and gracious Sir who lets me go through these things, but doesn't leave me to get swallowed up in it or consumed by it. (Although sometimes I question whether I am not on a stubborn crash course to stay down the rabbit hole) He lets me scream, cry, act out and get it out, and then (most often) gently helps me to navigate through these tumultuous waters. I make them even rockier because quite honestly the idea of being too much comes not because other people tell me as much. Oh no! It is an idea mixed up in my mind and I throw my perceptions onto others and force them to wear my opinions of myself. *whomp whomp*
The navigation of these seas also is because of close friends. Friends that offer cuddles, yet also offer perspective. Not always the happy light and fluffy kind either! I am talking the hard truths, the in your face kind of truths.
These are the people that I want to have in my corner! The people that walk through the good and the bad. The ones that see me for who I am, who encourage me and love me enough to speak truth. (We all deserve to know when we are being a bozo! Even if we don't particularly want to hear it)
Too often we simply just try to quiet the noise. I want to work through it. I want to bring it back to life. I want the music to shine through. I am a singer-i LOVE singing. (Even if a certain handsome Sir took 5 months of being together before he realized he liked hearing me sing! 😘) I don't want to quiet that....the melodies, the harmonies, the major and minor key changes, the discord...all of it make up the beautiful music that is ME.
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