I'm an old fart that there is no denying and pish posh about your only as old as you feel , well there's times I'm a hundred then !
Being an old hairy arsed grumpy Irish fuck wit I've garnered some insights into living my life. Like yes don't celebrate the start of masturbation week on the bus or in fact in most public places it's high risk and can cause over grip bordering on strangulation , yikes.
I've learned things like sleep is helpful food too and it's always good to talk but once more not in public especially if you're loudly talking to yourself as some cheeky feckers try to get involved you know sheesh 🙄.
My BDSM journey I would have said 7/8 months ago had come full circle sort of. I knew what I wanted , what I liked what I didn't like and who turned my eye and who made me get back on that bus again.
Or so I fecking thought.
Wait, what you mean you've changed your mind ? Your grumpy old fart stubborn as fuck mind has been put in doubt over its certainty as too what who why you are in the BDSM world ! It can't be you're too much of a fuck wad to admit change allow change or even consider change how can this be .
Yup.
I've had some new messages get through my thick skull and it's caused a bit of a sea change within.
I still have some unmovable set in stone likes dislikes that are firmly rooted and I don't even question their existence.
However.
There has been new ideas I never really explored before and I've found myself going down these roads a bit now and then and the trips have become more frequent. I knew they were there I just never felt the draw to them out of maybe not understanding, ignorance on my behalf , not meeting the right woman to show me the possibles , I don't know I can't say other than it's different now.
I'm excited to be honest. Excited to find something new someone new at this stage in my life my BDSM life . I feel a little humbled that I proved myself wrong that I can learn new things and I can accept new things and that the hairy arsed grump is that not bad an ogre after all.
For me now it's going to be watch this space.....fuck knows what's going to happen but it's bloody exciting.