Perfection ... the ever elusive ultimate goal.
To be perfect implies a condition whereby our action or performance attains a level of excellence that cannot be exceeded.
I strive for this in my everyday life, I dare say most do. I aim for it in my home life, in my job, in my behaviour, in my relationships and in my submission to my Daddy.
As His submissive, my role is to be pleasing to Him in all ways. In how I serve Him, please Him and in my behaviour. How I behave and conduct myself, whether He is present or not, is considered a reflection of His dominance.
His role as my Dominant is to help and guide me to be the best version of myself. He nurtures my nature and my submission, seeking perfection.
Humans, however, were never intended to be perfect. That's part of the definition of being human. However, many use this as their escape to exhibit bad behavior, hence the coined phrases "I'm only human" or "that's just me". This becomes a crutch in justifying their actions.
For me personally, I not only have high standards for myself but also have them for others. As adults, we choose our actions. Our choices become the reflection of our inner self, but they also become a reflection on our Dom/Domme.
Lately, I've been asking myself, is anything real here? Is anyone as they seem here? Anyone at all?
It’s an honest question.
Does integrity exist in this lifestyle whatsoever? I would like to think so. Is there a single person among us who is without blame? Of course not, but our efforts in our actions and choices can diminish negativity.
So many questions stirring in my soul as the sun begins to rise. I cannot dwell in the negativity of late. I cannot cope with contempt or justification. It weighs heavily on my heart.
I am anxious. Unable to sleep through the night. I grew to love this place. Have loved so much more the people. Desperately needing to see and feel something worth staying for.
I read somewhere:
"Truth trumps tragedy. Integrity is a shield.
Try it on sometime. It will protect you from inflicting pain and anguish on others."
I want to be a person and submissive my Dom is proud of. And before I had a Dom, someone a Dom would desire. Am I perfect? Absolutely not. I am flawed, just as everyone else. But I strive to take care of my behaviour and choices. I try so others may see that my efforts are genuine and true and not diminished by actions that are contradictory.
So ... do I make Him proud?
I hope so. He tells me so. I try every day to get one step closer to that goal.
Perfection may be elusive but being genuine and real is quite attainable. That is what I strive to be.
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