Dear Daddy,
One year ago today, this journey started ... our journey. I wasn't looking, wasn't interested in talking with anyone at that moment. All other attempts were not responded to, merely deleted, some not even read. I was preparing to walk away from it all, devastated and discouraged.
Yet, for some reason, I read Your message, then another and another, and something sparked in me. I can't explain it but it captured my attention and drew me in.
It started with few expectations but grew into something much larger for each of us. There was something ... so quickly. Something that made me comfortable and allowed the trust to begin. As much as I felt that though, I could feel myself slamming on the brakes, trying desperately to slow the speed and force this train was gaining.
The lessons I have learned are too many to count. Each breath I take is filled with lessons learned at your hand. You have allowed me to be me. Accepted me as I am. All the facets that encompass me. There are many, I know. You have helped shaped me into a person I am finally comfortable to say I am proud of.
I see, in wonder at times, your guiding hand, molding me, helping me to be the best version of myself. Encouraging me to truly embrace all of me and not be ashamed, but proud of who I am and who I am for You.
It is the most incredible feeling.
For someone to desire to know your true person, to stay with you when you stumble and flounder, when you are weak and when you are scared. It speaks volumes about the core of who You are, as a man, as my Dom.
You want me to be a strong and confident submissive, I'm a work in progress. I know I can be a handful at times ... as the saying goes ... that's why you have two hands. 😉
Our path together has not always been an easy one. And these last months have been challenging. But we have opened up to each other, letting each other in, allowing me to see the vulnerable side of You as well. You allowed me to see a few dings in my Daddy’s armour.
Although I wish for 2020 to be over, part of me is thankful for it. In all the challenges and detours, it has shown me what I really mean to You. How much You trust me, how much You love me and how much You are willing to do for us. Our relationship becomes stronger in the struggles.
In addition to my submissive life with You, I have a vanilla life as well, as do You.
The more I embrace this part of me, my submissiveness flows into my vanilla life so naturally, subtly. They have become so intertwined. What I do in my vanilla life is directly connected to my sub life. In fact, the decisions and actions I take in my vanilla life are so that I can maintain and enjoy my submissive life with You.
I celebrate all the wonderful things I do with You. We've done some crazy things. They have been fun, without a doubt and I always want us to experience new things. But the real important things to me are: dinner at a restaurant, a hug, snuggling on the couch, holding your hand as we walk, being told I am beautiful … the list goes on and on.
There are other darker things as well. You enjoy those with me as well. That’s another very important thing to me ... that we enjoy those things together. That is what holds meaning in it for me.
Your words and Your touch. That is what matters the most. Without a doubt.
I have never known anyone like You. I was beginning to believe this couldn't happen for me. That I could grow like this, as Your submissive. You are a wonderful man, and I feel grateful to have been chosen to belong to You.
We are in a place that has no label, a place that has no definition. Because there is no possible way there is anything else like this. This is deeper and stronger than anyone can express. All one can do is feel it and know it to be true. That’s what I know. I know this is true. I know You are true.
You are all I need. You. And I know You need me. I hear it in Your words, and I can see it in Your eyes.
Each day Daddy, You do what I have never experienced before ... to trust. In trusting You, I am revealing the way my mind works.
Each day, You calm the chaos of my mind, not for You, but so I can learn who I really am. A beautiful submissive woman that makes beautiful meaningful choices and does a beautiful thing by submitting to her Dominant.
You have started to help me to see what my own thought processes are. You have cast light on my behaviour, my fears and calmed my reactions to things. Helped me realize where we are alike, and where we differ.
You have helped me gain a different perspective on things, given me a sense of understanding that makes me realize sometimes, I have been blinded by habit or my own stubbornness.
You are so patient with lil k. You understand her, what she needs to feel safe and loved. You gently take her hand, help calm her mind when she gets frustrated and upset or afraid.
These moments, I want you to know, are the most priceless moments in my life.
The beautiful choice of a measured, reflective mind, making the best choice for me. No matter how scattered or fleeting my thoughts can be.
But you need to know it’s incredibly sexy, also turns me on in a way nothing else can. I am having this constant affair of the mind with You. The most mundane things have become incredibly exciting.
We have a slow, relaxed dance, like laying in bed with someone on a rainy day. I crave this more than anything right now.
I love the moments we have shared. I love as we have begun to plan our future together. I see it, I can feel it. I yearn for it to be here. I know ... I am impatient. I am because I want to experience every day with You. At Your side, at Your feet.
I am grateful to experience this wonderful, scary, amazing, confusing, enlightening, intoxicating journey with You.
They say you know your destiny when you see it.
I like my view.
I love it with You Daddy.
Your loving submissive
Your lil k
Your lil cub
❤❤❤
