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Where I Was, Where I Am, and Where I Am Going. And on a not so serious note, random things I just wish to share. Many times there will be no edits, so be prepared for grammar mistakes.
2 weeks ago. Wednesday, January 7, 2026 at 4:51 AM

crash into me, wrap yourself around me. Pull me into your arms. Show me the fire of the way we can be.  Let me show you my lil side, my playfulness, my laughter, my strength and my love.  

hold my hand , kiss my lips, bite my neck and claim me. Own me. Watch me across the room., see the look in my eyes. The look of desire and passion to serve you.  To be…

2 weeks ago. Tuesday, January 6, 2026 at 9:40 AM

needs to speed it up.   First pic May 16, 2025 may birthday   Second pic yesterday.  About 8months.  Here is the kicker  I weigh the exact same weight in each picture!!!   Yet I have gone down at least one full size if not 2.  Clothes as becoming lose  and my ass is rounding out perky and firm   

I should be so happy. But the damned scale haunts me  the numbers barely change, as in 2-5 pounds each way  

I ride 10min a day and get almost 4 miles in,  then I hop over to weight training and finish out with Pilates  

don’t get me wrong  I love the way I am looking and my legs are my glory and will kill a watermelon in August  

 

 

2 weeks ago. Tuesday, January 6, 2026 at 5:44 AM

Good morning, my day is about over and I will be off to bed.  But as I wait, I’ll sit here sipping my coffee, and think of what the future holds. 

2 weeks ago. Sunday, January 4, 2026 at 5:02 AM

 

 I am so afraid of Death, but not of my own passing, I do not fear that. I fear the death of those close to me, being ripped away from me. To never see their face or hear their voices again.  


I think to myself. Don’t get close to anyone because they can be ripped away from me. Then I tell myself, DO get close, love them. Cherish them. Be a moment in their lives, make the memories share stories. Be their final Muse. 


 Oh my fucking heart loves so deeply and clings so strongly. I feel so much for the ones I love. 

I want to be greedy and hold on so fucking tight.

I would fuck the Grim Reaper daily to keep him from your door. 

I would offer some of my years to keep you longer. 


To be covetous and have more time. More time for stories, laughter and smiles.  More time to just be there with each other.  I want to be so fucking selfish,  Don’t take them yet! Please not yet.

 

Why can’t we live to be 100 in excellent health with just minor symptoms of an aging body? Then when the time does come, it’s purely peaceful and one simply drifts to sleep. For me when you expire, you are no more. You simply just stop being.  The being you are is gone and your flesh to go back to earth. 

2 weeks ago. Saturday, January 3, 2026 at 3:39 AM

 


You know I am near, I cannot hide

You know my scent

You know my hearts beat

Your fingers rake through my hair, gathering into a  fist.

Tighten your hold, pull my head back. 

Your teeth rake across my throat.

You growl into my ear- MINE

My body runs cold, I shiver

My mouth gapes, sharp intake of air

Spin me down

On my knees

Stare down at me, hand on the back of my head

Thumb to my lips, pushing in

Eager, and needing,

Guide me.

Choke me 

Kiss me 

Lick me

Bring me to my knees

 

 

 

 

2 weeks ago. Friday, January 2, 2026 at 6:30 AM

I’m not really one to brag and draw attention to myself. But I am now able to show who I am, I'm letting fears go and releasing the past clutches that have held me back. 

look at this ass! I love having muscles, love the feeling of squeezing and flexing. 

riding 5-10miles a day, weightlifting and good ol’ Volga German beet farmer genetics - built this ass! 

my goal by summers end 2026 is to be able to crush a watermelon between these stunning legs.  

if you look closely you see no lines  😜  

 

 

 

 

 

2 weeks ago. Thursday, January 1, 2026 at 11:23 PM

My softness is to sharpen your strength, and your strength deepens my peace

 

I come to you to serve and be.  
I bring such care. 
to be yours 

3 weeks ago. Wednesday, December 31, 2025 at 7:47 AM

 

My body is a canvas. 

 Your brushes to color me.

Lovely strokes broad and defined dance across my skin.

Tears streak my face.

Joyous cries pass my lips.

Rising up on toe tips.

Dancing with love

Colors deep and rich

Depth of feelings

Proud of each blossoming color

Admiring each day

Watching the colors fade over time.

Bright and deep 

To faded chalk dustings

Colors so beautiful

So loved 

Touching them, memorizing them

Closing eyes, feeling them deeply

A dusting of colors across my canvas

 

 

 

 

3 weeks ago. Monday, December 29, 2025 at 8:43 PM

 

 

Reveal me, slowly pull the veil away from my soul, unwrap my shattered and repaired heart, wipe my tears away.

 


Slowly kiss me, holding me close, showing me the true light, and teach me the ways.

 


Bare my body of flesh and blood next to yours. Show me your scars and your joys.

 


Take control of my being, the being I've handed to you. 

 


Guide the ropes across my flesh, binding us as one. Piercing my skin until the red blood runs red across the white

 

 

 

 

 

 

3 weeks ago. Monday, December 29, 2025 at 5:00 AM

Have you ever wanted to start your day, sitting with someone close, having coffee and chatting all things, just sitting and hearing their voice? Oh that is what I desire.