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Where I Was, Where I Am, and Where I Am Going. And on a not so serious note, random things I just wish to share. Many times there will be no edits, so be prepared for grammar mistakes.
2 weeks ago. Monday, April 6, 2026 at 4:03 PM

I so believe this to be true. I at many times feel that I am still in my teenage years, yet living in a 50 yr old body. I was at 15 thinking I was having the best teenage years when in fact I was seeking attention- and seeking it in all the wrong places. I was hanging out with friends and going off with older men, who were in their 30's and 40's giving blow jobs and hand jobs.  I thought I was so mature and that's why thy liked me. Looking back I saw that I was people pleasing and was in fact not mature for any of that crap I went through. 

Now here I am healing that little girl in me, healing that teenager in me and now I can live freely and wildly. I cannot go back to that time and change the course of directory of my life. I do look back and think about what I would have done if I had found my voice to end the abuse. I would have spoke up until someone heard me, I would have been loud and said no. I would have been able to focus on my education and I would have gone into the Navy. I know now that I would have succeeded. 

I now live my life showing the teenage me what love and happiness is 

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