Many people have times and memories of childhood "blocked".
I have stated before, I analyze everything, over-analyze.
This is one of them . . .
You were in a really bad car accident - almost died. Why didnt your mind block that?? You almost died for fuck sake! Not only did your mind not block that, it played it out for you in slow motion!
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So then, it stands to reason, the mind will protect itself by "blocking" only certain types of hurt. . .
Emotions
But only certain emotions . . .
Mommy did that to me and I cringe (formally a blocked memory). My Domme (when/if I had one lol) does that to me . . . And I cum!
What the fuck!? 🤔
Right?
But I feel a sense of guilt afterwards. I would feel a sense of shame if anyone knew. . . But why? (Is this the essence of sub-drop?).
I wont go into gory details - like many, I had a fucked up childhood too. I spent most of my life trying to understand the "whys" of things - the workings of the human mind - disfunction, ect, etc, etc. Why, when someone is abused, they carry disfunction/s around with them for part of their life, or all of thier life. Guilt, shame, addiction, anger, etc. But the same person is quick to tell the story of that horrific car accident without any of these - Assuming, of course, they were the victim of said accident, and not the cause . . .
". . .and not the cause" 🤔
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I said to someone recently "you are not what was done to you!"
There is a singularity obtainable in the duality of man (humans). Conscious /subconscious - light/shadow yin/yang.
"Do not feel guilt or shame for indulging in your desires - It is the subconscious mind that drives our desires - the conscious mind complicates them" .
The trick, the secret - what ever you want to call it - is to embrace yourself, your heart and mind, your desires - they are you. Learn to listen to what your subconscious is trying to achieve.
*This subject could go very deep and lengthy, and I am by no stretch of the imagination an expert on any of it - just my experiences and research - and opinion.
As always, safe and consentual. 👍
Open for discussion . . . .
