I've been writing this for 3 days now. It's now been a week since she left, though it feels like an eternity.
How do I put into words the events of the last week or so. It started with the realization that she had a 3 day weekend and a "hey why don't you come for a visit?". "Let me think about it, I'll let you know tomorrow" and she did. Tickets purchased and the next thing I knew she was winging her way to Atlanta. Her flight was late and but I couldn't just sit at home and wait, so I went to the airport, the hustle bustle even in the midnight hour kept my anxiety at bay. Would we still like each other? What if the chemistry wasn't there?
We fell for each other over months, it almost happened without us realizing it. Then one day, I realized that my days were better, because she was part of them. She was showing me in ways that she was feeling the same way, but I was terrified to rush her, as her heart had been broken. I found myself spending my days thinking of how I could make her smile or laugh. Those that frequent the chat room watched it happen and may have recognized what was happening before we did. But I digress....
I stood patiently waiting at 1am. Watching others come up that escalator and be greeted by their loved ones. I'd alternate between staring and trying to make out her face and hiding my gaze in my phone. I'd pop briefly into the chat room and try to distract myself, but I was a bubbling cauldron of emotions. Where I grew up we would say that I was as nervous as a cat in a room full of rocking chairs. Finally I spotted her and in a final moment of panic I rushed forward to embrace her. I did not expect for her to go for a kiss, so as I drew her to me, I realized in horror that she went for a kiss and I turned my face and she got my cheek instead! I quickly kissed her, but I knew this was going to be a story that she would share and tease (rightly so) about for the rest of time. She remarked at how tall I was.... but really folks, she's just short and I did have on heels. I was nervous and babbled lightly but I was afraid to look at her. Was she real? Her hand in mine assured me that she was really there. The first hour or so was tough, my walls were up and I scared to let them down. Eventually things leveled out and it was a magical as I hoped.
I could wax on about how wonderful our first weekend together was, and the plans we made for the future.... but I don't want to bore anyone. I wanted to share our story to encourage people to be bold. Make that first contact to that person you are drawn to, don't hope they will do it. Don't be afraid to be yourself, even if you are a complete goofball or hot mess. The person for you will embrace your hot messedness. I see people downplay what a long distance/online relationship can be, and that's fine if that's your opinion. Your soul mate might not be around the corner, and if you aren't open to what the universe has for you, you might lose out on the magic.
