I never believed in soulmates or that we get one great love in our life, until now. Even as I hated Him, I loved Him. 15 years we journeyed separate paths.... but I resisted (as did He) making contact. I dabbled in the lifestyle but never felt such a deep connection. I felt it better to walk away, than try to force myself to serve someone when my heart wasn’t in it. I respect this lifestyle and those that live it, and I never wanted to be the one playing games. So I shoved everything deep down into a tiny box... my submission, my kink, my love for Him... I chained and locked that box and shoved it to the deepest darkest corners of my mind.... and I never thought I would look to it again..... until that fateful day when I offered myself to Him, so casually. Just “for fun” and only my orgasms. I thought we could play, and keep it casual, light and fun... oh how I was wrong.....,
That blasted box, refused to be kept in the dark corners. Every moment we spent together caused the damn thing to chatter its lid at me. Try as i might to ignore it, that lid inched open and things came rushing out.....
my submission... how I longed to completely lay it at His feet. Would He accept it? Over time He took more & more, until He said it was time I called Him Master once more.
my kink... that naughty bitch. She raised her carnal head and I found myself fantasizing of things, long since last. He reveled in my need for Him and of my blatant need of Him.
my love for Him.,. This was the one I dreaded coming to light again. I knew He did not feel the same way... but I could not stop myself from loving Him. I accepted that it would be forever unrequited, but somehow knowing I was His was enough for me... He had genuine affection for me, so what if it wasn’t love? But the fates were in control and He did/does love me, His girl now and forever. How did I get so lucky?
The box is wide open now... my heart & life is full of the wonderful things that poured forth from it. Many years ago, my mentor, my first and only Ma’am warned me about this box. She told me once it was open it would not be ignored or closed again. She asked me before I started in this path of the lifestyle if I was sure I wanted to open it... and I jumped to say yes! I have no regrets,....