Ive always felt different to my friends. A kinda loner, didnt fit in, something about me was different. Yeah ive always been proud of that but being alone sucks.
What ive wanted in a relationship. Didnt make sense to me let alone to my vanilla friends. Yeah every guy ive been with has been well immature and not there fault im 23 and i pick young guys. 😡 i thought i wanted experienced guy but too shy to look.
The more i learn about bdsm and myself, the more sane i feel. Im starting to feel normal, like i finally fit in. That im not alone. People feel the same way i do.
*deep confession*
Part of my struggle with my mental health, is not knowing who i am. Narccisst boyfriends took advantage of that. So did the bullies at school from a young age. So i closed myself of from myself to protect myself. But the last few years ive focused on healing. Im finding my centre again finally.
All i had to do was listen......
