Healing, learning, finding true self

Sigh tonight at scouts. We had special guests. It was raining plus loads of kids. I was making lemonaide damper. Someone came up and spoke in my ear. He was asking what we were making. Turned it was a fireman... grey haired... but in uniform. Too old for my taste. But still a turn on. Later on i stood in the back listening to them chatting to the youth. The young one caught my eye. All married... but in uniform. What is about being in uniform that makes my knees weak. I had to shut of brain as it just wanted to image what i wanted to do to the young fire fighter. Mmmm. I just wanted a taste sadly they had an emergency so they had to go while i was distracted. I think i know what im going to think about when i go to bed tonight 😜