My Very Own Jeremiad

I’ve purposely stepped back and have been reassessing things, myself the government, in general the world as I see it.   I’m tired of being frustrated and disappointed. 
 
Do I jump on my soapbox and express how pissed off I am about the government?  Oh yeah I already did that on my personal blog!  Do I simply express how I get disappointed that every time it feels like I’ve made an online connection, it seems I get ghosted? I've started to become that person that logs into chat and lurks to see if anything good is said without adding to the conversation.  I hate to admit, but I’ve even logged in to see who was in chat and if there wasn’t someone I wanted to speak to I simply exited.
 
I don’t want to be that person, frustrated and waiting with baited breath for the next email, next bond, next pm.  So, I stepped back.  There are people that I am genuinely happy for, that are in a great place, and on an amazing journey.  I am envious and am truly excited for them. 
 
Negative Nelly I am not, but what they are experiencing isn’t yet for me to experience and that’s okay. Everyone has their own journey, their own path to traverse.  I just need to find mine.  Therefore, I will continue to be on the fringe while hunting for me and mine.