I am listening to my gut/intuition/6thsense more. During this process I’ve stepped back when something/someone doesn’t feel right, even if I can’t identify what it is exactly. I usually try again if it’s just something that makes me go hmmm. After the 2ndor 3rdtime and I’m still thinking this isn’t right for me and I say something. Let’s be honest ghosting sucks, but I am beginning to see why people ghost.
It’s upsetting that someone who doesn’t know me wants to tell me what/who I am. Maybe I’m too nice, damn Midwest upbringing…but I’m not going to be rude, unless I am provoked to be. I don’t understand why it’s so hard for someone to trust me to know me. I am more than capable of making my own decisions and determining what is right for me. It would definitely be easier to just disappear and not have the conversation, but I can’t do that because it’s the cowards way out.
This also applies to those who have ghosted me. You don’t get to come back…you left abruptly…sometimes hurtfully…screw you motherf&$*er…peace out. I may or may not respond but I don’t have to respond. It goes back to the fact that I know me best and I’m not going to take any crap. Say that I’m not a sub/bottom…whatever…I am an independent sub/bottom/ maybe switch. I’m me and will not make apologies for who I am or what I want.
I'm not some damsel in distress or to quote Ani DiFranco a kitten stuck up in a tree somewhere. Even if I were, don't you think every kitten figures out how to get to down whether or not you ever show up. Yes, I'm stepping off my angry girl soap box, but ARGHHH!!!