The last month has been a hell of an uphill battle. I did land a job but it was part time and for all their talk of I am not going to be for lack of hours we all know how this goes.
So this morning I signed for a full-time position! It was very very fast. Interview, pee test, job.
This matters to me not just from an economic standpoint, but from a BDSM stand point as well.
When you have somebody in your care like my love is in mine, it's my job to provide not just financial security, but also health insurance, life insurance, and retirement.
All of those things that help keep her safe. All of those things that help safeguard her health.
I am really afraid of working full-time after being forced off of disability. But my job is home hospice which means I'll be able to take breaks in between seeing people. Those breaks will help me be able to nurse my symptoms and get me ready to see the next person.
Since working part time the symptoms have exacerbated. I'm up during the night puking or the headaches and vertigo exacerbate badly.
So by no means am I out of the woods. However, this is what I have to do until we figure out what other options that we have.
On one hand I'm afraid of my symptoms- on the other- I feel able to care for her again properly.
One of the reasons that I struggled so deeply with a part-time position was because I didn't have benefits. As a Master it's my job to make sure those things happen. Although I was on my way to evening out what was happening in the household, I just didn't feel right.
So as I go about my day, I feel much more capable as a Master knowing that these things are handled.
Or me, Mastery isnt just about service and play. Its about also doing your part behind the scenes to see to your slaves safety in real time.