As I look in the mirror, I begin to get that horrid feeling I haven't felt in such a long time.....
Disgust, shame, and the feeling like every picture I share with my Dom is a lie.
All because he gets to see the better parts of me....not the parts that I hideaway.
Yes, I love to show off my body for my Dom. Yes, I feel sexy for him. But not when I feel ashamed to even look at the rest of my body.
The disgust from all the stretch marks, the folds of flesh... and the dreaded fat and skin that hangs from my midsection.
The one an only part of my body that I hide in shame from absolutely everyone.
And by hiding this part of me, I feel like a giant lie.... like a disgusting blob... a monster.
I'm tired of feeling this way! Tired of being ashamed! Tired of focusing on my flaws and not doing anything to fix them.
I want to be able to walk into a room and not feel like my flaws are the first thing that everyone sees. To be able to walk around in a swimming suit and not feel like I'm about to crawl out of my own skin as peoples gaze falls on me.
I want to feel comfortable in wearing absolutely NOTHING at all!
But for this to happen... something has to change.... It's now or never
