After my Daddy Dom left... I was feeling so broken inside. Questioning everything that this lifestyle had thrown at me.
Broken down, anxious and confused... I was hurting bad.
And then just like he always does, he decides shows up again. My first love, my comforter, my best friend... my ex.
Things seem to be going back to exactly how things were before.... Promises of never ending love and a willingness to please. All of his vanilla love and more.
I feel myself relaxing around him again. Willing to let myself fall in love...
But...then it hits me.... This isn't what I want anymore.
I don't want a man who would be willing to change who he is just to please me, to agree with anything I say. A man who would submit to me without a second thought....
Any girl would be lucky to have such a man in their life. But why don't I feel that way?
My inner sub already knows the answer, and she slaps me with the reality of it all.
You may love him, but to have him submit to you makes your stomach turn.
You are not a Dom, and you will never be. You are not the same woman you were when the two of you met, and you know who you are.
You needed to be Dominanted... You are a submissive. And after getting a taste of that vanilla life again, it's never been more clear.
Now all is left is to break that mans heart.... And give into the truth. While you do love him, there is a part of you that he could never satisfy.
It's time to let him go.