Sometimes I feel like I'm just a replacement. Like all I've ever be good for is a stepping stone to fix a heart break or loneliness. Like no one will ever want me to keep me. Just as something to use and toss to the side. I'm tired of feeling this way but it just seems to keep repeating.
I get attached. It's who I am. I like to have that connection and need it. But sometimes I fear it's going to get me hurt. It's a valid fear considering it's happened more than I care to admit. I even get attached to my friends.
It's the connection I need. It's just something that happens. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't know if I can take getting attached to anyone (friend or otherwise) to end up hurt again and again.
I know I'll be okay. I always am. I always fight to make it through but sometimes I just want to throw in the towel.
