It's only 10:55 am and the day has already gone to shit. My kitchen sink floods often anytime we do wash the laundry in the washer or drain the tub too quickly. To accommodate for this I've learned to only do small loads of everything. Including bathing (shower is currently broke but will be fixed soon). I asked for some help with the laundry today (my mistake I know) bc my toddler wanted to hang all over me.
My ex came downstairs so proud that he got everything into the washer (should point out it was 3 large loads of laundry so at least 5-6 small/medium loads). I made the statement that the sink will flood and he told me to shut up it won't happen...
Well needless to say... 10 minutes later we hear the sign of the sink flooding. I rush into the kitchen trying to control the damage as he strolls upstairs to stop the washer/get towels. He makes his way back downstairs and is so busy in his phone that I'm trying to rush and do everything. Toddler wants to play in the dirty water so I'm constantly moving her back into the living room whole grabbing the towels from him to mop up the water.
I'm getting frustrated and angry. What the hell is so important on the stupid phone that he can't seem to help me?! (Hint it's a game!!!!) So I make the statement "seriously I could use some help!" As I move our toddler away again. He gets pissed. Starts screaming and yelling than throws, yes THROWS, his phone across the room putting a hole in the wall in the hallway. My only response is to throw him out for now..
I unfortunately will have to let him back in as he has no where else to go. And I have no way to pay the bills other than him and his job for the time being.(the way he demanded it be!)
Come the new year my mom is helping me get my CDA for childcare so I can try to get a job at a day care. Somewhere I can bring my toddler with me. All I have to say at this point is honestly thank God my oldest child wasn't home. I don't need her thinking this behavior is okay or acceptable in any way shape or form.
I needed to vent and get this all off my chest. Stress levels are high. Yesterday was amazing and I actually went into little space (something that happens so rarely it actually surprised me) for a little bit. Granted it was at night and alone in my room but it still happened.
As always spread peace, love and kindness. You truly never know who might need it...
