So as I have said before I suffer from depression. It's usually not a problem until days like today happened. I was busy cooking something I have never cooked before and really messed it up. Now most people would tell you it's okay and it doesn't matter. No, not my family. Instead I was told that it looks like total crap and I would be lucky to have anyone eat it. Now that kinda destoried me emotionally today. I am already having a rough day as it is but that was just the extra icing I needed.
Now to explain better I do suffer from depression. I have suffered with it since I was in Middle school. I have tried just about everything to handle my depression and found out it's best if I just go without medication because medication just made me numb and felt like I was just going along with the flow while not getting anything out of life.
So, how does a submissive live with a depression that can put her downfor days at a time? I am not going to lie it can be very hard to do. On my depresseddays trust I have built can be destoried by my mind like it never happened. It can destory things I've built up and enjoy everyday. Simple daily tasks that I have become to much for me to handle and causes me to completely break down. It's hard. Very hard.
Now if you suffer from depression I would suggest finding someone who knows what it's like to have depression. So on the days where you just want to lay there not moving the can understand how much it would take for you to moveout of that spot. But you also need someone who will encourage you to move. I am not going to lie. Most people cannot handle being put into a situation where that could happen. Some would just walk away saying you're overreacting while others will just tell you to get over it. Some can enable you to not move at all and will just let you do whatever.
I am lucky enough to have a Dom who encourages me when I am dealing with my depression to get up and move. He encourages me to shower and do things I should be doing without a problem. He understands how hard it can be for me to do something as simple as messaging him good morning. He encourages me that it's okay as long as he knows I am okay. If I'm not okay than he talks me to until I become okay.
Living a life with depression is hard. But sadly you can get used to it. Hopefully someone comes around who moves everything and makes me easier to handle for you.
