Today has been stressful. It's barely even 10 am and I am ready to rip my hair out. Work has been hell for the past few weeks. Getting my youngest diagnosed took entirely too long. During the school yr (Sept to June for where I live) I was called up every single day to take her home due to her behavior. No one believed me more was going on. Well yesterday I was told she is level 3 Autistic. Looking at my youngest, you would never see it. In other countries (of course not the USA) she would fall under the PDA section of Autism, but not here. When I spoke with family about it they told me the doctor must be wrong, mind you my family helped me fill out all the paperwork, so they answered all the questions, more then I did. I'm just tired and stressed. I feel like I don't give my oldest enough attention and that I'm failing. I'm trying so hard to be good, but dark thoughts keep circling.
I am okay, I will be okay. This too will pass. I just needed to vent but everything will be okay.
Be kind.
