My Journey Into Open Arms

Satindragon{Not Lookin} - I agree that you need to take some time to get in touch with who you are inside. We all have our demons and things that drive us. Share your journey to finding you, who you really are and what you want for life here. You never know who you might help or find along this path. You have open minded support here.
*hugs and best wishes as you search for you*

ABanCubTR​(dom male) - Thank you. I have hurt to many people so far and the two above the most and the ex sub the worst. That is not the way to do anything. I regret my decisions and need to fix me before I can ever have the opportunity to find someone again. My ex wife fought a war for a long time and my ex sub suffered the most casualties from it. I need to find me to fix me and correct the evil ways i thrust upon them. Thank you though again.

Loulou​(sub female) - At least you see things and are addressing things .
You will emerge stronger . I messed my marriage up too and I am getting a second chance . There is always hope . I am in counselling too . I wish you healing along your journey.

ABanCubTR​(dom male) - I am happy you were given a second chance. Regardless of the length of this journey it is definitely a must for me to grow and become a better person. I owe them both a great deal in return for the lives they gave me. I took advantage and for granted the things i had. I will never grow unless I change ME and fix myself and really find the real me and correct this destructive behavior and evil mentality.

Loulou​(sub female) - If you ever need to talk I am here . You will grow and learn though because the want to change is there and that is half the battle

ABanCubTR​(dom male) - Thank you i appreciate it

ABanCubTR​(dom male) - Thank you i appreciate it

SoaringFree​(sub female) - I really believe the first step to healing is realizing where mistakes were made and owning them. You will become stronger in the end and be able to love greater because of it. Wishing you the very best of luck during your journey.

ABanCubTR​(dom male) - Thank you for your kindness and words as well. I did not write to gain sympathy. I wrote this because i am riddled with guilt and must fix me to stop my childish ways that caused such damage to two amazing women that gave their all to just be treated poorly. If i dont find and fix me there will never be hope of ever finding happiness or making anyone happy.

Satindragon{Not Lookin} - I think what we are trying to do is give you hope. I hope you were never violent or physically abusive. Mental abuse can cause more lasting damage than anything physically. If you have anger issues, figure out why. If you need counseling there is no shame in getting the help you need. If you need to vent or need support you have this community. We may all be kinky with our own demons but we unite when someone needs a non judgemental ear to listen. Hang in there and sort through the why's of your actions so you can be a better man.