THINKING AND KINKING

Lyrics

Am I out of my head?
Am I out of my mind?
If you only knew the bad things I like
Don't think that I can explain it
What can I say, it's complicated
Don't matter what you say
Don't matter what you do
I only wanna do bad things to you
So good, that you can't explain it
What can I say, it's complicated
Nothing's that bad
If it feels good
So you come back
Like I knew you would
And we're both wild
And the night's young
And you're my drug
Breathe you in 'til my face numb
Drop it down to that bass drum
I got what you dream 'bout
Nails scratchin' my back tatt
Eyes closed while you scream out
And you keep me in with those hips
While my teeth sink in those lips
While your body's giving me life
And you suffocate in my kiss
Then you said
I want you forever
Even when we're not together
Scars on my body so I can take you wherever like
I want you forever
Even when we're not together
Scars on my body I can look at you whenever
Am I out of my head?
Am I out of my mind?
If you only knew the bad things I like
Don't think that I can explain it
What can I say, it's complicated
Don't matter what you say
Don't matter what you do
I only wanna do bad things to you
So good, that you can't explain it
What can I say, it's complicated
I can't explain it
I love the pain
And I love the way your breath
Numbs me of novacaine
And we are
Always high
Keep it strange
Okay, yeah, I'm insane
But you the same
Let me paint the picture
Couch by the kitchen
Nothin' but your heels on
Losin' our religion
You're my pretty little vixen
And I'm the voice inside your head
That keeps telling you to listen to all the bad things I say
And you said
I want you forever
Even when we're not together
Scars on my body so I can take you wherever like
I want you forever
Even when we're not together
Scars on my body I can look at you whenever
Am I out of my head?
Am I out of my mind?
If you only knew the bad things I like
Don't think that I can explain it
What can I say, it's complicated
Don't matter what you say
Don't matter what you do
I only wanna do bad things to you
So good, that you can't explain it
What can I say, it's complicated
The way we love, is so unique
And when we touch, I'm shivering
And no one has to get it
Just you and me
'Cause we're just living
Between the sheets
I want you forever
Even when we're not together
Scars on my body so I can take you wherever like
I want you forever
Even when we're not together
Scars on my body I can look at you whenever
Am I out of my head?
Am I out of my mind?
If you only knew the bad things I like
Don't think that I can explain it
What can I say, it's complicated
Don't matter what you say
Don't matter what you do
I only wanna do bad things to you
So good, that you can't explain it
What can I say, it's complicated

MDG

Who do you think of?

MAKE SURE YOU GET IT RIGHT!!

                                                                           MDG

I sincerely hope that everyone has a very awesome and kinky day today!! 

MDG

Break loose from the familiar,

Launch out into the deep,

Don't let fear govern your life. 

                                                MDG

Losing someone on Cage, or within the D/s lifestyle in general is extremely difficult as some of you are already well aware. However, when you lose someone that you both thought was supposedly going to be your "one and only," that becomes much more difficult to swallow.

When it wasn't just someone that you were either training/being trained by, or only in a play relationship with, it is so much different.

When you honestly believed that person was your best friend, your lover, and your soulmate, and when that person told you the same thing it is so much different.

When you shared so much about each other's lives; The past, the present, and you made future plans together, it is so much different.

When you could laugh like crazy with each other but also cry so easily together; when you would stay up all night long every night talking about anything and everything it is so much different.

When you honestly felt not only in your head, but also deep within your heart, that this relationship was all you needed for today, for tomorrow, and for always, it is so much different.

However, one day with absolutely no warning you get an unexpected message and this person is gone from your life in an instant. But not just the D/s relationship, the entire friendship as well. Everything in that moment comes crashing down on you. All of the memories, the plans, and the dreams.

Losing that relationship was really very similar to a death for me. I had already had so much death and loss in my lifetime. I lost my mom when I was 3 to Leukemia and my dad when I was 18 from a heart attack. I left home and was totally on my own since I was 15. I lost one of my sisters to Ovarian Cancer. My niece drowned when she was 21 while studying abroad and she was one of my sister's only daughter. I lost my Uncle a week before this past Thanksgiving. He was always like the dad I never had.

I literally had to mourn the loss of this most recent relationship and that's a damn shame.
However, because of all of the previous deaths and losses I had endured, I have always been and always will be a survivor. It is all part of life and part of my journey as a Dom and I am a better person and a better Dom because of it.

Since this happened, I have done a great deal of self reflection and healing and I am doing so much better now. I have for the most part stayed away from Cage for a month now and I actually wrote this several weeks ago. Just to be clear, I am not looking for any type of sympathy or pity, I just felt the need to post this hoping that it may help others. Please be honest, faithful, and kind to each other. Sending much love to you all.           MDG

I will never forget the day that we first met,

You reminded me of a breathtaking sunset.

Your mesmerizing eyes would always be sparkling away,
You have the sweetest soul and kindest spirit every day.

My most precious gift was having you submit,
It is something that I'll always cherish I must admit.

Together we could have conquered the world,
I know deep in my heart that you will always be my girl.

I love you so deeply but now I'm feeling blue,
It hurts so bad that you couldn't see this through.

My biggest concern is always for your safety,
Memories of our times together will never ever escape me.

The moon is in the same place each night there as it is here,
So meet me at the moon and I will appear.

So for now you are saying goodbye,
To the best Dom you'll ever find I cannot deny.

My dream is that our paths will cross once again forever,
And we can be true soulmates together.

I guess there is nothing more for me to say,
Except that my heart is totally broken today. 💔

The Rolling Stones - 1967

Enjoy it!

Her journey is much more about a woman falling in love with herself and her own life. She needs to realize that the mistakes she made earlier on in her life that she hasn't forgiven herself for, will actually lead her down the correct path to her true purpose and future happiness.

All of the insecurities that she has had will begin to disappear. It will be then that she will finally start to breakthrough and know that she deserves the best.

She needs to know that she is totally amazing. She needs to understand that she is far more than good enough. Her voice can and always will be heard. She is truly breathtaking both inside and out.

She now deserves her true Dominant soulmate. ❤️