The Muse

Another from my favorite band.  The lyrics are ya exactly riveting, but it moves me, still.

You the Starry Eyed by Beats Antique 

You the starry eyed
through the darkness lies before you
push on throught the night
like the ones who came before you
now you carry on
now you carry on
now you carry on
push on through the night
You the starry eyed
(through the darkness lies before you)
through the darkest nights before you
push on through the night
(now you carry on)
like the ones who came before you
now you will carry on
(now you will carry on)
now you will carry on
(now you will carry on)
now you will carry on
(now you will carry on)
now you will carry on
(now you will carry on)
You the starry eyed
(darkness lies before you)
through the darkest night before you
push on through the night
(push on through the night)
like the ones who came before you
before you
now you carry on

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Iris (Hold me close) by U2

The star that gives us light
Has been gone a while
But it’s not an illusion
The ache in my heart
Is so much a part of who I am
Something in your eyes
Took a thousand years to get here
Something in your eyes
Took a thousand years, a thousand years
Hold me close
Hold me close and don’t let me go
Hold me close
Like I’m someone that you might know
Hold me close
The darkness just lets us see
Who we are
I've got your life inside of me
Iris, Iris
Once we are born
We begin to forget
The very reason we came
But you I’m sure I've met
Long before the night
The stars went out
We’re meeting up again
Hold me close
Hold me close and don’t let me go
Hold me close
Like I’m someone that you might know
Hold me close
The darkness just lets us see
Who we are
I've got your life inside of me
Iris, Iris
The stars are bright
But do they know
The universe is beautiful but cold
You took me by the hand
I thought that I was leading you
But it was you made me your man
Machine, I dream where you are
Iris standing in the hall
She tells me I can do it all
Iris wakes to my nightmares
Don’t fear the world
It isn't there
Iris playing on the Strand
She buries the boy beneath the sand
Iris says that I will be the death of her
It was not me
Iris, Iris
She said free yourself to be yourself
If only you could see yourself
Free yourself to be yourself
If only you could see

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(Keep in mind that this poem does not reflect my current mood or situation... I just wanted to share.)

Would you fall in love

If I asked you to

If not with me

Then someone new

So you can feel the joy and pain

That I do

I wish that I could

Blame you for

The aching and

Love’s broken door

So I don’t have to see myself

The way I do

I fall silent

But I can’t hide it

And I’ve tried it

But the ghost remains 

I stabbed you with

My beating heart

And thought that we

Were torn apart

But I knew I was pushing you

The way I do

I drew you in

And held you close

And said that I

Love you the most

But you were gone and I respond

How I do

Self fulfilling 

Affection killing

Tears are spilling

I’ll be alone again

You walked away, sadly
After handing me a frog
Wearing half a tuxedo
No pants
You. Not the frog.

Then we rode.
My mother drove.
I gazed at you
From the backseat
Musing about a show

We stopped along the way
To look at a house
An alley of grass
And rusted out
Antique cars
Full of bees

Three queens landed
On my face
The threat was there
But no stings
They stayed.
You stayed.
I don’t know
What happened to the frog.

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Don’t ever take your time to tell your loved ones how you feel.  Always be kind.  Always listen and give plenty of hugs.

You never know when someone is going to be taken away without warning.

I love you! ❤️ 

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“Muse.” I said to myself... “Where is your head this morning?”

I had finished a long shift with my beloved night crew and had been diligently training a new med tech.  

Ive been ill... I’m worn and tired. I have dark circles under my eyes and I’m glad I’m home resting now.

I was giving my report to the oncoming  med tech and I explained that I had updated everything in the BLOG.

She looked at me as if I had grown 8 heads. Understandable.  

I think my head has been here on the Cage... maybe even all 8 of them.

I may have updated the medication administration records or the charts... but let me clarify... I don’t blog about my residents. 

I dressed for the gym this morning, and I grabbed a shirt that I figured would be suitable for my power walk.  

I was instantly amused by this tiny piece of fabric sewn over the left boob.  It looks like it might wantabee (giggles) a pocket.

I was cleaning my desk and going through papers, throwing stuff out, and I stumbled across this note that I had saved from one of my residents. 

I cared for this resident and his wife.  The wife passed away in 2017 which left this poor man devastated.  He eventually healed and began to move on.  He found other women to chase... not limited to other residents! 

He was very fond of a few of the staff.  I was one of those few.  

It hurt reading the note because this man passed away while I was on sick leave with my surgery.  I never was able to say “Goodbye”.

It might be a little difficult to read.

Have you ever been so amused by something but you don’t want to be mean so you gotta just slap a hand over your mouth before you eat your foot?

I really cannot help that I find humor in certain things and I feel the strong urge to heckle.  I mean... I will heckle myself ... I really have little pride.  I can take criticism.  I can take ridicule.  It truly does not bother me. 

I’ve never really cared for degradation and humiliation; not because it is a trigger for me, but because I am just not easily humiliated and I have zero shits to give.

It doesn’t turn me on.  There’s a big chance if someone tries, I’m just gonna laugh.  Believe me, I’m sure I’ve had worse said to me.

Anyway.  Back to my point.  I’m terribly amused.  It could be that it’s 4am and I find that it’s amusing about how airplanes can fly. (That’s not what has me giggling right now... maybe I’ll share it eventually.)

I apologize for this inane post.  If you are terribly curious.. you can always message me but then you may not be nearly as amused as I am!