The Muse

This song holds a special place in my heart.  

Warning by Incubus

Bat your eyes girl.
Be otherworldly.
Count your blessings.
Seduce a stranger.
What's so wrong with being happy?
Kudos to those who see through sickness yeah
Over and over and over and over
She woke in the morning.
She knew that her life had passed her by
She called out a warning.
Don't ever let life pass you by.
I suggest we
Learn to love ourselves,
Before its made illegal
When will we learn, When will we change
Just in time to see it all come down
Those left standing will make millions
Writing books on ways it should have been
She woke in the morning.
She knew that her life had passed her by
She called out a warning.
Don't ever let life pass you by.
Floating in this cosmic Jacuzzi
We are like frogs oblivious
To the water starting to boil,
No one flinches and we all float face down
She woke in the morning.
She knew that her life had passed her by
She called out a warning.
Don't ever let life pass you by.
Pass you by.

Especially worms that play the drums.

Dr. Worm by They Might Be Giants

My name is Dr. Worm.
Good morning. How are you? I'm Dr. Worm.
I'm interested in things.
I'm not a real doctor,
But I am a real worm;
I am an actual worm.
I live like a worm.
I like to play the drums.
I think I'm getting good,
But I can handle criticism.
I'll show you what I know,
And you can tell me if you think I'm getting better on the drums.
I'll leave the front un-locked 'cause I can't
Hear the doorbell
When I get into it I can't tell if you are
Watching me twirling the stick.
When I give the signal, my friend
Rabbi Vole will pay the solo
Some day somebody else besides me will
Call me by my stage name, they will
Call me Dr Worm.
Good Morning how are you, I'm Dr Worm
I'm interested in things.
I'm not a real doctor,
But I am a real worm;
I am an actual worm.
I live like a worm.
I like to play the drums.
I think I'm getting good,
But I can handle criticism.
I'll show you what I know,
And you can tell me if you think I'm getting better on the drums.
I'm not a real doctor,
But they call me Dr. Worm.

I’ve always loved this one.

When Doves Cry by Prince

Dig if you will the picture
Of you and I engaged in a kiss
The sweat of your body covers me
Can you my darling
Can you picture this?
Dream, if you can, a courtyard
An ocean of violets in bloom
Animals strike curious poses
They feel the heat
The heat between me and you
How can you just leave me standing?
Alone in a world that's so cold (so cold)
Maybe I'm just too demanding
Maybe I'm just like my father, too bold
Maybe you're just like my mother
She's never satisfied (she's never satisfied)
Why do we scream at each other?
This is what it sounds like
When doves cry
Touch if you will my stomach
Feel how it trembles inside
You've got the butterflies all tied up
Don't make me chase you
Even doves have pride
How could you just leave me standing?
Alone in a world so cold? (world so cold)
Maybe I'm just too demanding
Maybe I'm just like my father, too bold
Maybe you're just like my mother
She's never satisfied (she's never satisfied)
Why do we scream at each other?
This is what it sounds like
When doves cry
How can you just leave me standing?
Alone in a world that's so cold? (a world that's so cold)
Maybe I'm just too demanding (maybe, maybe I'm like my father)
Maybe I'm just like my father too bold (you know he's too bold)
Maybe you're just like my mother (maybe you're just like my mother)
She's never satisfied (she's never, never satisfied)
Why do we scream at each other? (why do we scream, why)
This is what it sounds like
When doves cry
When doves cry (doves cry, doves cry)
When doves cry (doves cry, doves cry)
Don't cry (don't cry)

I took video of myself dancing, and I’m going to share with all of you because it is something that frightens me to share but at the same time, it is a piece of myself.  I don’t think I did that bad being post surgery.  I really don’t have the space to give it my all and it’s hard to see my hip work.

It is good to stand on top of the world, even for such a fleeting moment.  

So swiftly, it lifted.

Much like Inanna.. one must descend sometimes.

Strip away a small part of oneself at every gate, 

Until you find yourself staring into the mirror to find your dark sister, Erishkegal. 

Naked, exposed and completely vulnerable.  To die and be born again,

Much the same way;

Naked, exposed and vulnerable.

From this rock, I have learned to fall into the arms of the world.

Something I ran across that made me laugh.  It almost had me until I saw the cat shadow on the left.  😹    

wtf...

Im going to do something I don’t normally do but here goes.  The Muse is going to vent.  There may be cussing. 

I am on my second 12 hour shift.  By the time Monday night surrenders to Tuesday morning I will already have 36 hours for the week, with three more work days to follow.  Scheduled overtime.  

I normally would not mind this if: 1. We had the adequate amount of staff to support all the residents, 2. The residents were not flipping the F out tonight (seriously), and 3. I don’t know... I’m sure I’ll think of something else. OH!!! 3. If I were getting paid as much as all the other Medication Aides ... as I have been here longest, have more responsibilities and train those coming in... who get paid more... brand new.

So I come in to work at 7pm and discover that I’ll be in charge of not just one unit but the entire building for our busy shift. And by the way, Muse... you are only going to have three aids total to help care for the 60 residents while you pass meds. 2 of the aids are required to be in the unit with only 19 residents. That leaves myself (whose busy passing meds) and one aid to care for the 40 residents remaining.

I have one resident with a cognitive impairment... peeing all over the common area living room. Another resident cussing because he can’t go poking around inside the nurses station to find his glasses at 2am......And another resident who keeps messing with his urostomy tube so that it looks like a murder scene every time we go check on him.

Im sooooo done.

I just had to vent.  I love my residents and I’d love to not be stressed out so I could deal with all of this.  I’ve managed to have patience thus far.

I just think this song is so beautiful and moving.

Love Never Dies part 3 by Apoptygma Berzerk

Saw you looking so sad
Like everything is gone
So you left them all
Just leave them all behind
Just realize the water is way over our heads
I don't worry much, cause I'm halfway dead

So why are you crying?
Why are you crying?

Can you tell me why, can you tell me how?
Can you tell me why aren't you happy now?
Whatever it is, it's really over now
Can you tell me why, can you tell me how?

We took them by surprise
By leaving this place
Some thoughts we left behind
Some good and some sad

You should know
I hold you in my arms...

You should know
That I hold you in my arms...

🦊🐺

I really miss Michael Hutchence as lead vocalist.  Although I haven’t really given INXS a chance without him. 

Never Tear Us Apart by INXS

Don't ask me
What you know is true
Don't have to tell you
I love your precious heart
I
I was standing
You were there
Two worlds collided
And they could never tear us apart
We could live
For a thousand years
But if I hurt you
I'd make wine from your tears
I told you
That we could fly
'Cause we all have wings
But some of us don't know why
I was standing
You were there
Two worlds collided
And they could never ever tear us apart
I
I was standing
You were there
Two worlds collided
And they could never tear us apart
You were standing
I was there
Two worlds collided
And they could never tear us apart
I
I was standing
You were there
Two worlds collided

🦊🐺

There are two instruments that I find absolutely compelling and stimulating.  One is the saxophone... a very well played saxophone.  I’m not referring to Kenny G.  Sometime in the near future I will post an example of the kind of sax playing I enjoy most.  If you are really curious and cannot wait... do a search on YouTube for a band called Too Many Zoos.  I even have a video somewhere of me shaking my drunken tail feathers to said band.

Anyway....

The second instrument is the cello. This is one that sings to my very soul. Enthralls my entire being and makes my heart write poems onto itself.

The song I’m sharing is from Doctor Who and more specifically my favorite Doctor.  The 10th Doctor.  I fell madly in love with him and instantly became enchanted with his relationship with his companion, Rose Tyler.  The song is wordless but it has an amazing cello solo in it that brings me to my knees.

Doomsday