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A creature that drives inspiration and passion in the soul of an artist.... Why is she charmed? She has become enthralled with her subject. The artist has rendered her to her knees.
5 years ago. January 28, 2019 at 2:09 AM

All This Time Still Falling Out of Love by Erasure

As a means of release
Pick up my little pieces of heaven
'Tis a social disease when I cry
As you head for the door
I want it all, you can take it all leave it
With the light coming in
My desire to give in runs away with me
If I'm not good enough and my love is too much
Then forget it
Now I am strong carry me home
You can take it or leave it
God help me but forgive my true intention
It hurts me but I've nowhere left to run
All this time still falling out of love
As we cut to the thrust
This could well be the year of decision
Do you know what I mean
Like a song spinning round in my head?
Now I am strong carry me home
You can take it or leave it
God help me but forgive my true intention
It hurts me but I've nowhere left to run
All this time still falling out of love
I want it all, give me it all
I want it all, give me it all
God help me but forgive my true intention
It hurts me but I've nowhere left to run
God help me but forgive my true intention
It hurts me but I've nowhere left to run
All this time still falling out of love
All this time still falling out of love

5 years ago. January 27, 2019 at 9:26 PM

There is this weird phenomenon that occurs when I use my phone camera with the flash as I snap a selfie.  I have decided to call it the “Drunk” filter.  Now when I am posing for the photo... my face appears completely normal.  I become satisfied enough to press the button and then when I look at the results.... I am horrified... and perhaps slightly amused!  I have added the pictures with what the shot looks like without the flash so you can compare.  I find the bottom right to be the funniest!

5 years ago. January 26, 2019 at 6:15 AM

Waking Up Beside You by Stabbing Westward

I've been alone for so long
Forgotten by the world forgotten to myself
Your effervescent eyes have awakened me
And brushed the dust away
But I knew you'd never stay
So I memorized the color of your eyes
As I lost myself inside you
I memorized the way our legs entwined
As I drifted off beside you
I miss
God I miss waking up beside you
At night I cling to you I'm so afraid
Afraid the day will come
And I'll wake up and find you gone
But you promise that you'd not abandon me
And kissed my fears away
But I woke up to that day
But I had memorized the way our eyes would meet
Reflected in the bathroom mirror
And I memorized your naked silhouette
As you slowly brushed your hair
I miss god I miss waking up beside you
I've been alone for so long
I forgot how much it hurts to wake up so alone
But I memorized how warm your body felt
As you lay half asleep beside me
And I memorized the way the sunlight filled the room
And played upon your body
I miss god I miss waking up beside you

5 years ago. January 25, 2019 at 3:45 AM

Just another little song.

by Depeche Mode 

We're damaged people
Drawn together
By subtleties that we are not aware of
Disturbed souls
Playing out forever
These games that we once thought we would be scared of
When you're in my arms
The world makes sense
There is no pretense
And you're crying
When you're by my side
There is no defense
I forget to sense I'm dying
We're damaged people
Praying for something
That doesn't come from somewhere deep inside us
Depraved souls
Trusting in the one thing
The one thing that this life has not denied us
When I feel the warmth of your very soul
I forget I'm cold
And crying
When your lips touch mine
And I lose control
I forget I'm old
And dying

 

 

5 years ago. January 24, 2019 at 7:58 PM

I felt his chest rise and fall beneath my head as I stretched my naked body against his and smiled.
His voice moved the hair around my ear as he whispered.

“Were you able to get any sleep?”

My body shuddered and I nodded and rubbed his abdomen while he continued to cradle me against him.

“Mmm hmm.”

“Do you want to continue being my sweet little slut today?”

My nipples tingled as the two hardening nubs rubbed against his side. My breathing quickened at the mention of being his slut. My lips parted as I let out a breathy, “Yes, Sir.”

A slow smile spread on his lips, and I could feel his cock growing firm beneath my thigh draped across him.

“Would you like to edge more before I allow you to cum?”

The moan in the back of my throat poured out of my mouth before I could answer. The previous day, Sir had me edge several times throughout the day; before breakfast, before and after lunch, sometime a little after that, again and again. I was not permitted to orgasm. Not yet. Every movement, every breath and syllable of his voice had me trembling. I could feel the wetness collecting between my legs, trickling from my quivering pussy. My voice broke softly.

“If that would please you, Sir.”

“You already please me, my sweet little slut. Let’s have a taste. Get up, on your knees.”

He shifted so I could comply, and I rose up on my knees while he watched, leaning back on his elbows. I slid my fingers down between my legs, inside my wet folds with another soft moan. My eyes lingered on his before falling to his hard member. Imagining how he felt inside of me caused me to make another noise as I drew my hand back up to my lips. My eyes locked with his as I sucked my juices from my fingers.

He got up and grabbed a fistful of hair at the back of my head and kissed me hungrily. Whispering his words against my lips he said, “I want you to edge while edging me in your sweet mouth. Don’t you dare make me cum, slut. Do you understand?”

I gasped and nodded, “Yes, Sir.”

“Good girl.” He released my hair and leaned back on his elbows, “Tease me a bit, first, slut.”

I positioned myself between his legs, kneeling in front of his erect cock. I brought one hand up to hold the base firm. Lowering my face to the crown, my tongue pressed across the head slowly leaving a damp trail, followed by my hot breath.

I met his gaze and heard him groan in pleasure. I slid my free hand between my legs and found my clit. Stroking it gently in small circles as I proceeded to run my tongue under the edges of the crown of his cock. My lips locked around the tip of him, and I sucked hard with my tongue pressing along the ridge of his shaft. My clit enjoyed the same firm treatment and I moaned around him. Lips gliding across his velvety skin as my head bobbed slowly, swallowing him in the back of my throat as my lips met my hand around the base.

My desire escalated as I felt his hips lift and he murmured, “Yes, That’s a good slut.”

I gasped and choked as I began to pick up the pace, peeking up at him. The look on his face made my whole body shudder. I was close. I could feel my clit quivering. Just a few more strokes as I sucked on his cock; swiftly now… his hips meeting my face. I stopped rubbing. My clit throbbed and I nearly cried out.

Suddenly he held my face. “I said don’t make me cum, slut.”

I stopped and released his cock, panting “No, Sir.”

“Good, girl.”

 

 

 

Tbc

5 years ago. January 24, 2019 at 2:32 PM

One of my favorites by Duran Duran.

The Chauffeur

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Out on the tar plains, the glides are moving
All looking for a new place to drive
You sit beside me so newly charming
Sweating dewdrops glisten freshing your side
And the sun drips down bedding heavy behind
The front of your dress, all shadowy lined
And the droning engine throbs in time
With your beating heart
Way down the lane away, living for another day
The aphids swarm up in the drifting haze
Swim seagull in the sky towards that hollow western isle
My envied lady holds you fast in her gaze
And the sun drips down bedding heavy behind
The front of your dress, all shadowy lined
And the droning engine throbs in time
With your beating heart
And the sun drips down bedding heavy behind
The front of your dress, all shadowy lined
And the droning engine throbs in time
With your beating heart
Sing blue silver
And watching lovers part, I feel you smiling
What glass splinters lie so deep in your mind
To tear out from your eyes, with a thought to stiffen brooding lies
And I'll only watch you leave me further behind
And the sun drips down bedding heavy behind
The front of your dress, all shadowy lined
And the droning engine throbs in time
With your beating heart
And the sun drips down bedding heavy behind
The front of your dress, all shadowy lined
And the droning engine throbs in time
With your beating heart
Sing blue silver
Sing, sing, blue silver

5 years ago. January 24, 2019 at 1:09 AM

I could be finished but I’m not sure... I have left 8 petals uncolored and I am wondering if I should leave them uncolored or color them... and if I color them ... what color? So many options.

5 years ago. January 23, 2019 at 3:29 AM

My switch was everything I needed at the time.  He was and still is the most honest person I know.  He thinks out loud.  This was sometimes not a desired feature of our relationship.  

 

We had an open relationship.  He was (still is) polyamorous.  I’m not but I needed the openness.  I found everything about our relationship, refreshing.  We would discuss everything.  He would over discuss his ideas sometimes.  

 

I experienced many firsts with my switch.  He was the first to really tie me up good to the bed and torture me. He was the first to use nipple clamps on me.  The first and only to have my ass.  The first to make me squirt.  The first and only person I’ve engaged in threesomes with.  Butt plugs... electric paddle.... 

 

He had a balloon fetish (probably still does)... I’m a bit frightened of balloons but I’ve also found that I get extremely turned on when I’m frightened... This made things kind of interesting.  

I am also scared of clowns.  Now ... I went to his house one night and came into his room.  The bed was covered in a large dark plastic tarp. There were gigantic balloons everywhere. In the closet.... there was ... a life size CLOWN balloon.  Now... I was okay riding around on the cute catapillar or some of the other bizarre balloons... but dammit... That clown had to GO! Out in the hall... on the porch ... did not care... was not gettin naked with that creepy F’n thing lookin at me!

It was still a wild and fun night!

 

Eventually my need for something exclusive got the best of me and instead of asking him to change himself to please me... I ended it.  

It was probably one of the worst mistakes I had made because the grass is never greener.

 

 

5 years ago. January 22, 2019 at 11:16 PM

Another perk before I add color...

5 years ago. January 22, 2019 at 5:04 AM

At my latest mandala I have been working on today...