The Muse

I’ve had a lot of inspiration to write so many different things this morning and I’m not sure where to begin.

Someone very important to me, messaged me the other night to tell me he was MIA but he’s back… We had a very good conversation… parts made my heart race. I’m not sure he knows how he affects me.

I had a discussion awhile back about the narrative by Shakespeare, “Venus and Adonis”. We were musing over the possibility of Venus being a Domme. In which case it would make Adonis a very reluctant sub. I had to go back and read it again after all these years (it is one of my favorite Shakespeare writings). Venus mentions how she had the god of war begging for her gifts and would lead him on a red chain… (metaphorically of course…or is it? Hmmmm)… This Dom I had been talking to suggested that maybe the story could be rewritten as a BDSM version of itself. It would be quite an undertaking… It’s very long. I also thought maybe trying that with some of the plays. I figure if someone can put zombies in Jane Austen novels…. Why not put kink in Shakespeare? It’s really already there if you pay attention anyway.

I was also considering working on more of The Submissive Muse series and touch upon my first spanking. I don’t think I shared that yet… Have I?

Anyway… Got all these ideas.. not sure what to do.

I danced last night. I recorded it. I wasn’t all that happy with the results. I wasn’t feeling it. I think I still need some time to recover more.

Lots of snow on the ground and no where to go… so Yay!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

...And it’s good night for me.

It Doesn’t Matter Two by Depeche Mode

As I lay here with you
The shame lies with us
We talk of love and trust
That doesn't matter
Though we may be the last in the world
We feel like pioneers
Telling hopes and fears
To one another
And oh what a feeling
Inside of me
It might last for an hour
Wounds aren't healing
Inside of me
Though it feel good now
I know it's only for now
The feeling is intense
You grip me with your eyes
And then I realize
It doesn't matter

Another little song to move you.

What happens in the shadows
No one has to know
The truth is in the gallows
It'll burn but it won't go
A whisper in the darkness
In the quiet it'll grow
you can try to hide it in the farthest place
But everybody knows
Something in the Shadows
Cuts you like an arrow
Shifting through the dark
Strength in your weakness
This Fire is in your blood
Hanging on to that hope
I know that you know (everybody knows)
There's something in the Shadows
It finds you in a cold room
Silhouette against the wall
Lit by the white moon
We'll out run the dawn
You can the faces
But you don't know there thoughts
You can feel the traces
Chalk lines on my heart

1. Caturday You’re in Love (with me!) by Milo

[Excuse his penmanship... no opposable thumbs and all]

Ya...y’all know who you are!

Na na na
Na na na
Na na na
Na na na
All the hip young things trying to make a scene
Living out forbidden dreams
Star spangled banner flutters in the sky
Time hustles those who wait to die
Come on little honey
Come on now, please
Come on little honey and dance with me
Sweet soul sister
Keep on pushing till the dawn, well
Sweet soul sister
Forever dancing on and on
Oh, she's a Dior girl, twisting round the world
Midnight crush boogie scene
Firm fixed expression, sensual, tender, smooth
Sexual panther, beautifully cool
Come on little honey
Come on now, please
Come on little honey and dance with me
Sweet soul sister
Keep on pushing till the dawn, well, well, well
Sweet soul sister
Forever dancing on and on, yeah
Sweet soul sister
Keep on pushing till the dawn
Sweet soul sister
Forever dancing on and on, yeah

I’m incurable
I’m fed
But I want more
I drink
But it’s never enough
I watch and read
But my mind spins
It weaves a story
Too fantastic
I feel silly
Like a child
Reaching
For what
I have no idea
I want
But should I
Could I even
I feel plagued
And broken
The pieces
They might look better
Fractured
Rather than
Improperly mended
A distorted picture
A fire
Could seal
Those jagged edges

I fell in love with this band several years ago... not only for the sound of their unique clash of old and electronic... but also because their live performance includes one of my favorite belly dancers, Zoe Jakes.  She is amazing.  This video is responsible for hooking me.  Enjoy!

It’s Friday I’m In Love by The Cure

I don't care if Monday's blue
Tuesday's gray and Wednesday too
Thursday I don't care about you
It's Friday I'm in love
Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday Wednesday break my heart
Oh, Thursday doesn't even start
It's Friday I'm in love
Saturday wait
And Sunday always comes too late
But Friday never hesitate
I don't care if Monday's black
Tuesday, Wednesday heart attack
Thursday never looking back
It's Friday I'm in love
Monday you can hold your head
Tuesday, Wednesday stay in bed
Or Thursday watch the walls instead
It's Friday I'm in love
Saturday wait
And Sunday always comes too late
But Friday never hesitate
Dressed up to the eyes
It's a wonderful surprise
To see your shoes and your spirits rise
Throwing out your frown
And just smiling at the sound
And as sleek as a shriek
Spinning round and round
Always take a big bite
It's such a gorgeous sight
To see you in the middle of the night
You can never get enough
Enough of this stuff
It's Friday
I'm in love
I don't care if Monday's blue
Tuesday's gray and Wednesday too
Thursday I don't care about you
It's Friday I'm in love
Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday, Wednesday break my heart
Thursday doesn't even start
It's Friday I'm in love

Some people are not fond of Sinead... I personally love her.

It’s Just Like You Said it Would Be

by Sinead O’Connor

I will walk in the garden
And feel religion within
I will learn how to run with the big boys
I will learn how to sink and to swim
And there's talk in the houses
And people dancing in rings
Ah, when you close my eyes, babe?
I can see most everything
I can see most everything
It's just like u said it would be
It's Just like u said it would be
It's just like u said it would be
It's Just like u said it would be
I can see too many mouths open
Too many eyes closed, ears closed
Not enough minds open
Too many legs open
Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me, do
Why isn't it why why
I don't see why I listen, why, why
When I've walked in the garden
When I'm walking off stage
When everything's quiet
Will you stay?
Will you be my lover?
Will you be my mama?
I said will you be my lover?
I said will you be my babe?
When I lay down my head
At the end of my day
Nothing would
Nothing would please me better
Than I find that you're there
When I lay down my head
At the end of my day
Nothing would
Nothing would please me better
Than I find that you're there when I wake
Just like u said it would be
Just like u said it would be
Just like u said it would be
Just like u said it would be
Will you be my lover?
Will you be my mama?
Just like u said it would be
Just like u said it would be
Just like u said it would be
Just like u said it would be

I posted one of my mandalas a while back and the core of all my mandala drawings are based on eight points. This has significance in various cultures. It is the star of Ishtar/Aphrodite/Venus... In Judeo-Christian belief the number 8 signifies new beginnings, and redemption and baptism.  I wear an eight pointed star tattoo on the back of my neck because it is important to me. I am a very eclectic individual and I find so much peace in this symbol.