I stared at this for awhile trying to decide what to compose here; if I would write anything at all... I’ve had a few people inquire about me. I figure I might throw this out there like a little bread crumb.
I don't share much on the internet, so this is really kind of scary. I have an online art gallery... I do mild journaling within that site, but I never thought I’d be exposing myself like this. The ironic thing is that I really enjoy exposing myself!
With that said... I’ll begin from the beginning. I think I was interested in bondage at a very young age. Being bound has always excited me. All through high school there may have been some playing here and there but nothing serious. I received my first collar from a guy in school and even though he was not a Dom... I felt a sense of belonging and wore it proudly.
That feeling of belonging is what drives me the most. When I can say “I belong to you.” Those are the most treasured words to come out of my mouth. I do not say them lightly.
I’ve had one relationship with a switch that lasted 2 years... It was one of the best relationships of my life; although he tended to be less dominant than I preferred. I’ve had another Ds relationship with a very narcissistic Dom... a very bad experience all around that lasted an agonizing 3 years. I went Vanilla for awhile. No success there either... always missing that need to belong; the need to surrender to someone I trusted to be in control. I’ve stayed online to try and fill that need where I feel safe for now.
I’ve had my fill of failed relationships and right now I need to step back and reflect on everything. I’m not about to even think of becoming a burden to a Dom right now.... So when I say I am not looking and I am not available, it is to your benefit.