Before diving right in, I thought it might be good to start where my love for BDSM began. I have always been a submissive girl. Not a shy girl but a submissive girl. I was always outgoing. For the most part I’ve always been a rule follower and loved when boys took the lead in the relationship. My life has always been chaotic and I’ve always been an over thinker. Submitting helps me focus and helps calm my mind.
I dated a guy in college who introduced me to a lighter version of the Dominant and submissive dynamic. He would plan my week out for me with times so I could keep on task and stay focused. He mainly used restraints and blindfolds and the occasional smack on the ass during sex. But unfortunately we didn’t work out and I met my very vanilla husband and had a few children. I became a stay at home mom for 19 years and during that time everything I did revolved around the kids and their lives. It wasn’t until the kids got older that I began to realize that I had truly lost myself. I do not regret raising my babies. I love being a mom. But something was missing, And along the way my marriage fell apart.
About four years ago I discovered a kink site and decided to make a profile. The first person I met was a female switch. And she befriended me and helped me explore more of my submissive side. I’ve grown in my knowledge of BDSM and I’ve grown as a submissive.
I was introduced to a man that was a Master. I had read about slaves and Masters but never even considered that I could be a slave. But Master D went slow and steady with me and helped lead me into a very deep submission to him. He helped me discover my love for pleasurable pain. My craving for pleasing him increased greatly so Master D started to not only the sexual part of me but the vanilla too. He took control of what I wore, what I said, what I ate, what I posted on my various social media acct. I also went into subspace with him for the first time. It was such a euphoric experience. It was a very deep M/s relationship that went on for about a year.
I learned so much about myself that year with Master D. I felt free. I had finally found my purpose. And I had finally gone from the darkness into the light.
