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My insecurities about my body, have been there for a while. I have children ( not ashamed ), but with my woundeful children comes the body of a mother.

How do I push passed these insecurities. How to accept and be ok with the lovely lines, and extra pounds my children have given me.

I find lingerie, that is cute. I want to feel cute in it. But, my motherly love handles make me feel very very different. Why, I have nothing to feel ashamed of?

So the question again is why feel ashamed? Why do I make myself feel this way. Constantly feeling like my body is not good enough for someone.

I don't wear makeup, my face is the face of someone who has loved every minute of her life. The ups and down every second of my life I have enjoyed, wont change it. I have walked through some pretty rough shit. That I made my peace with LONG ago. So again why feel ashamed? Why doubt, someone elses attraction to me?

I am ashamed, or so I think because I have been betrayed. More than once in my life. Even when following their requests and their needs. They have no problem betraying me. I lived a vanilla life for them, and I was ashamed. I was doing what they asked and still they betrayed me.

NOT ANYMORE!

I love the feeling of metal touching my body.
I love the feeling of being led around the house with my favorite ( and only ) collar.
I love being blindfolded
I love being being DOMINATED!
I love being a submissive
I love my body!
If you don't have a nice day
I love neapolitan ice cream! No more vanilla.

I am NOT ashamed of my body!
I am NOT ashamed of not liking vanilla
I am HAPPY!
So either get happy for me or
HAVE A NICE DAY!
5 years ago. November 19, 2018 at 4:49 AM

As I sit here on break eating....my mind wanders.

I have several friends who have told me they don't wear panties. I alway said gross, they would tell me I am missing out. I never understood. Vanilla, wears underwear.

Master informed me today that his subs don't wear panties. So, off they went. As I placed my yoga pants over his beautifully naked pussy. I thought I could do this, then I took a step. Oh shit!

I froze, the sensation that she was getting from me WALKING was crazy. I made it to the car slowly. 

I began my 20 min ride to work. Every bump was sending shock waves through my system. His pussy was screaming to be touched. With each slide up and down on the speed bumps about forced me to release. Master was very clear NO ORGASM!.

Oh my sweet master, you are cleaver. You knew!

How was I going to do this, I was going to have to muster every strength, just to focus on work, and not the ever growning want to be touched. 

Master, allowed me to play with her but No orgasm. I sat ever so quietly allowing my hair to fall onto my sholders as I cuped his naked, exposed pussy, and began slowly caress his clit, moving my way down to her soft lips, with every touch every movement she quivered with excitement. 

One finger, then another as my mind wonder at what master would do if he was here. Would he consume her with his tounge, or insert is cock into my pussy and allow to breath a sigh of release. 

Stop Stop stop! No ORGASM I am a good girl.

My timer is going off I must return to work.......will I make it through?

One thing is very clear here, a prude no more. I may never wear panties anymore. 

 

CrimsonPaw - Welcome to club commando 😉 lol it's great, isn't it?! 😊
5 years ago
gprincesssub​(sub female) - It is out of this world!😊
5 years ago
gprincesssub​(sub female) - It is out of this world!😊
5 years ago
gprincesssub​(sub female) - That's a thought that crossed my mind.
5 years ago
FunCouple{.-Couple-.} -
Ladies.
I have a feeling my imminent post on masturbation my be received with some acceptance.
5 years ago
Sensual City Girl{ForeverHIS} - 😱😱😱 I need my panties...I’m like the niagra falls as it is because I’m constantly wet. I’m going thru 2-3 panty changes a day at times. Lol I’d have to get a portable closet for work to change. 🤣 It’s bad enough at home when I don’t and I’m soaked 😏
5 years ago
Sensual City Girl{ForeverHIS} - 😱😱😱 I need my panties...I’m like the niagra falls as it is because I’m constantly wet. I’m going thru 2-3 panty changes a day at times. Lol I’d have to get a portable closet for work to change. 🤣 It’s bad enough at home when I don’t and I’m soaked 😏
5 years ago

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