When the realization that all your pain and anger is yours it can be devastating. It's normal to want to have a person(s) to blame for the damage you go through and to have a purpose for the fight you put yourself in. Then when you come to terms that all the pain, and hurt and anger you got out of that fight...is your pain, your the reason you suffered all that you did. How is that suppose to make you feel? How are you suppose to accept that deep inside you lives a monster. And all you can you do is listen to music that speaks to all the emotions going through your body.
And the music makes you realize that you are not okay.
And you kind of feel like you should be in a padded cell with an "I love myself" jacket
It's just one of those weeks..