Random Thoughts of a Wandering Sub

Okay peeps,

I have a question.

I'm wondering if this is normal or if Daddy may possibly being doing it on purpose.

Okay well...

So Daddy seems to do something, I don't know what it is, but he makes me finish.

Thats not the problem.

The problem is, when he makes me finish. It won't stop.

Yes. You read that right.

IT WILL NOT STOP.

Unless he stops. The orgasm will continue. I mean like full on can't speak or move orgasm. You body is fully wound up and it is just like one LONG orgasm. There is no coming down from it.

There is no stopping until he stops.

Now, this doesn't happen all the time. Its frequent and I am starting to wonder if Daddy is doing it on PURPOSE.

Or

Maybe i am broken. Does anyone else experience orgasm that wreck your body and just does not end?

Thanks! Sorry if its TMI.

Love,

Kitty

August 13th marks one year that Daddy has owned me.

Our relationship has and is not all roses and rainbows, or whips, and spankings(lol).

We had some pretty brutal moments. The beginning was mostly people wondering (and ourselves) if this was even possible. He was poly, I was not. He had another girlfriend, and I...well I didn't handle it very well.

Flash forward to us now, he is monogamous and we are only for each other. He makes me unbelievably happy and safe. He loves me and mostly all my crazy. I love him and all his nonsense.

Our first year we both went through hell. As he says, it was a battle. Even when many people said it wasn't possible, we made it possible. There was many times we both wanted to walk away but we didn't and because we didn't we got to celebrate 1 year together.

Daddy got us this very nice hotel for a couple of days. For 2 days we got to be us, Daddy and kitty. That doesn't happen much these days. (it's been hectic and crazy) I got my 1-year charm and I was soooo excited! I love it when I earn a new charms!

Daddy,

Our first year was a rollercoaster and we made it. We got through the first year. I love you. I love you so much. You make me feel safe and cherished and I could never express how that makes me feel.

I can't wait for what this year brings us, and all the years ahead of us.

Forever & always yours,

Kitty

MY NEW CHARM!

I started an online program 2 weeks ago and though I go back and forth on it, I actually really enjoy it.

Somedays are easier then others, mainly because the projects are easier and less time consuming. But on those bad days I have someone who seems to know just what I need.

My mind won't just turn off. Thoughts flood on what I need to do, how I'm going to do it, should I do it like this...ect. And he just knows. 

He knows what I need even when I don't.

He tells me to come lay down and cuddle, rubs my forehead and kisses my hands when they're sore from so much writing and typing. When I'm really stressed out and my mood has dropped, he takes me to the garden.

When I think my project(s) suck he tells me how they are amazing. He supports my ideas and encourages me to move further. Also, let's not forget the cuddles.😸

these are things you think have no real significance. You go through life emotionally alone. Maybe get a "good job" from some friends and family. But to have a person who smiles so bright when you accomplish something, to cheer you on and kick you in the but when your struggling. You don't think you need it and when you have it it's like a piece of the puzzle has just clicked.

I often wonder where I'd be if he hadn't found me. Would I have taken these steps in bettering my future? Would I have let my little out and enjoyed having her out? Would the fact that I had been so use to being my own support system have made me cold and closed off?

Also, cuddles!😸

Who knows and I'm glad I never have to find out.

I love you Daddy. Thank you for being you.

Today is a very special day for me and my Daddy.

Today is 9 months of when he first collard me.

I remember it so well.

We met in a hotel in Casa Grande. I kneeled for him willingly and I vowed to myself I will always kneel for this man willingly.

He placed his signature collar around my neck and in that moment I felt whole. He kissed my neck around the collar.

Back then he wasn't my Daddy, he was my Sir. In 9 months parts of me have come out. Little, kitty. He makes me feel safe to be who I am.

I am his:

Sub

Slave

Kitty/ little

We've been through so so much in such a little time but no matter what it is, he is still the man I love. The man who takes my breath away, who calms my mind and who owns my body.

*~*8/13/2019*~*

I love you Daddy! Happy 9 months!

Forever and always!

Kitty

 When the realization that all your pain and anger is yours it can be devastating. It's normal to want to have a person(s) to blame for the damage you go through and to have a purpose for the fight you put yourself in. Then when you come to terms that all the pain, and hurt and anger you got out of that fight...is your pain, your the reason you suffered all that you did. How is that suppose to make you feel? How are you suppose to accept that deep inside you lives a monster. And all you can you do is listen to music that speaks to all the emotions going through your body.

And the music makes you realize that you are not okay.

And you kind of feel like you should be in a padded cell with an "I love myself" jacket

It's just one of those weeks..

I wonder when I will be enough.

May we never forget the real problem.

Please remember safety first and that this isn't a time for stupidity.

This should be a no brainier

My kind of PPE!

Sadly this maybe true for me.

Keep smiling peeps! Even when you feel like going crazy from social distancing!

With love,

Kitty

Happy Sunday!

Daddy has been in Tucson with me for over a week! Yay! And he is here for an unknown amount of time because Seattle is ground zero for the new virus.

I am enjoying my time with him immensely! Well, this morning he told me he had to shave today or tomorrow. No, this kitty LOVES a scruffy Daddy. I love the feel of his scruff on my neck, face and chest. So what did this kitty do? She hid his razor! HA! Try and shave now Daddy!!

This kitty wants scruff, she gets scruff.

This kitty is the BOSS!

BOOM!

Kitty wins!

Hope everyone is have a amazing weekend!

Much love,

Kitty

P.S. I expect consequences for this post and my actions. Worth it. Kitty is still the boss.

 One of my favorite toys Daddy uses on me is the wand. Its just...wow. Well, he brought a new attachment for it. Pink, pokier but it really gets the job done.

Well, I am the type who can't help but squeeze her legs closed when she... you know... finishes.

I did just that... 3 times. And now, I have booboos. And of course my booboos feel just the the little pokey prongs. Oooo it is not comfortable.

But when it's good, it's good. And it was SOOOO good.

Guess who's not riding the bike at the gym for a couple days!

So worth it!

Happy Tuesday!

Love,

Kitty

 It sometimes amazes me how being away from each other for only a few days can cause so much impact. During the days away you tell each other you love them, miss them and you sincerely do. But you don't know how much you do, at least that's the case for me.

 I left Seattle with my daughter last Saturday, 7 days away from Daddy. Overall this was a bad week between mood drops but also health reasons. When away from each other, we talk all day long and we video chat every evening, sometimes more. During the pain of whatever is going on with my body, I craved his arms around me, kisses on my forehead and my head on his chest (my safe place.). I wanted it so bad I would be a cranky kitty and lash out. 

 Yesterday Daddy flew to Tucson. He is here until the 8th. I love when he is here in the house we chose together, filled with the furniture and love we put in it. It just feels right.

He brought the rest of the stuffie family! I was so excited to get a family photo of them and the new pillow Daddy brought me. I almost cried when I read it.

Albert, the purple dog, is the very first stuffie Daddy got me. He now stays with Daddy in Seattle. Also, his name is because Daddy reminds me of Albert Einstein.

Penny, the pink dog, is the replacement Albert. 

Rapunzel, the small purple bear. I got that for Daddy for Valentine's day. She is just a baby.

Mr. Grey, the BIG grey bear.

I love all my stuffies. When I am home in Tucson I miss Albert so much. He was there for all the pain, he caught all my tears. But now he stays with Daddy so he can comfort Daddy when he misses me or is having a stressful day. He is such a good doggy.

Being with all my stuffies and safe and secure in my safe place on Daddys chest. I think I can actually say I felt complete. I have never felt a love like this. I have never been so willing to hand myself over to another person. But Daddy keeps me safe, makes sure my wellbeing is his top priority and he loves me as fiercely as I love him!

Find someone who treats you like you are the most precious thing on earth, even when you dont think you are. They are the ones who deserve your love and you deserve their love.

Happy Sunday!

Love,

Kitty!